I Battle Depression
Hello me again i haven't felt this bad in a few months i don't know what to do anymore my life seems hopeless i can't see any way for it to get better i keep thinking about it and all i see is myself alone in this house sitting alone in a dark room on my computer wishing it would all stop wishing to die to have my existence erased from everyone's memory so at least my death wouldn't cause anyone any pain if there was a way to do this i would take it right away i only stay because i know what my suicide would do to the people around me so i sit here hoping someone or something would kill me i can't take living anymore it just hurts so dam much i don't know what to do i wish i could trade my life to someone else more deserving more wanting of it than me i don't want to feel like this anymore its so horrible i need it to stop please i just need someone to make it stop i would take whatever torture if it meant i don't have to go another day alone feeling like this no one should have to feel like this all the time