I Battle Depression

Hello me again i haven't felt this bad in a few months i don't know what to do anymore my life seems hopeless i can't see any way for it to get better i keep thinking about it and all i see is myself alone in this house sitting alone in a dark room on my computer wishing it would all stop wishing to die to have my existence erased from everyone's memory so at least my death wouldn't cause anyone any pain if there was a way to do this i would take it right away i only stay because i know what my suicide would do to the people around me so i sit here hoping someone or something would kill me i can't take living anymore it just hurts so dam much i don't know what to do i wish i could trade my life to someone else more deserving more wanting of it than me i don't want to feel like this anymore its so horrible i need it to stop please i just need someone to make it stop i would take whatever torture if it meant i don't have to go another day alone feeling like this no one should have to feel like this all the time

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Footsugar123 · M

Some meds have to be adjusted so you don't feel like a zombie, my friend is on alot of them, it took multiple trys to get it right but she is good now, with that being said, she started going out and doing more things to build her confidence, alot of ppl look at the outside of a person and make judgment about them like that, having your teeth fixed will give you a better feeling of yourself and perhaps you will feel like going out, who knows you might smile at a pretty girl with those new teeth and get a date, I battle depression alot and I know how it feels to be feeling hopeless, the more you think about it the worse it will get. Talk to your friend in the UK but first ask him how he's or she's doing since the grandparent had died, you know that would be the polite thing to do, then you can feel out if you should say anything about your problems, but if they are your friends I'm thinking they won't mind.
Be strong and if you want to talk message me, I'm not on a great deal but I will reply back.

Rick