Stay with new therapist?

@CountScrofula thanks for saying that me talking and them just basically listening is not real therapy

@Coralmist my understanding is that your brain processes thoughts differently when you do it.


Perhaps related, I remember learning a long time ago that people naturally look back and forth when on silent walks while in deep thought.

We've also been trying brain spotting a couple times recently and that seemed to have some interesting results.

@JoyfulSilence I agree doctors really need to update the next nurse or doctor..and the patient is ill..they don't have the energy to keep retelling their whole history..ughh. they did it to my sister in the hospiral too.

@Coralmist

What was worse was having my father visit or call. He would interrogate me like I was on trial. I could not recall what people said. If a nurse or doctor were present I would just hand them the phone. They found him annoying, too.

I tried harder to remember what people said just to get my father off my back. He was helping me with stuff so I had to be nice. But he caused me unnecessary stress. I just wanted to sleep, he wanted medical reports.

@twiigss Ty...I could try that🌺 I do leave pauses for her to ever challenge my fear or issue or maybe extend a bit but ..unfortunately she doesn't. I may try your idea asking her directly of her thoughts.

@Lostpoet That is true.. but I have gone through this trauma alone too long. I haven't found a way to heal myself. I think a lot just don't want to delve in further..they are getting paid a good amount to know ways of attacking thoughts or methods OF new thinking..she hasn't mentioned any. But I might give it a bit longer as she is a positive person and I need that.

@Coralmist Perhaps it's time to try a different idea, or two. Perhaps join some kind of club or association. Or if you are religious perhaps join some kind of congregation.

Or perhaps try to identify your least worst problem and confront it directly, if that works move on to the next one.

Don't take me too seriously, I'm lucky enough to not have many problems. But as @OlderSometimesWiser says you seem to be stuck in a rut, perhaps just getting out of the rut might help even if only a little.

What I can say is this: in my journey from an occasional very private cross dresser to someone who confidently goes out in public dressed just as I want, what worked for me was to repeatedly take tiny steps. In my case it was things like: add a bit more jewellery, wear brighter colours, wear shorter skirts, higher heels, lipstick, get my ears pierced. I could never have gone from dressing male to doing all that at once but doing one tiny thing and waiting until that felt ordinary, then another small thing and another wait for ordinaryness, and so on seems to work for me.

Perhaps something analogous could work for you.

@ninalanyon trauma work is different and many people say they treat it but really dont

@ninalanyon @ninalanyon That is a great Way to diminish a a fear...little by little making things ordinary. Ty for your ideas🦋

@Catzgano Exactly the last one said she knew trauma and then said negative things u would never say to someone with trauma. My new one said she specializes in it but doesn't offer anything on trauma itself or how to heal it when I discuss it. I think many just act like the patient ONLY needs to vent so they just nod. We need HELP that is why Im there!😮

@OogieBoogie I think I do need a person .. i have debilitating PTSD that unfortunately online aid doesn't fully help. I guess I will need to ask for feedback more.. for now anyways. Ty my friend 🫂