@OlderSometimesWiser There is always change and realignments that happen with relationships too as we know, and I am not willing to change any longer out of the person I have become and the happiness I have developed from my changes.
The 17th of this month will be a year since my wife of ten years left me. Since that time, I have been focused on my health, my career, my kids, and my parents. The only thing that I've been having trouble shaking is the constant loneliness that I feel. The lack of companionship.
I've tried the love thing a couple of times and both times it's imploded (for various reasons - some of which are my issues), so I don't intend to try it again. I have awesome kids so that's my positive takeaway from each relationship. The rest is in the virtual bin of life.
Right now, I am perfectly happy and contented in my life. She would have to be an exceptional woman that blind sides me because I am not looking and believe me I look both ways before crossing the street, railroad tracks, intersection, and entering the roadway because I hate being hit broad side.
Still rebuilding. I'm a totally different person to who I used to be. I used to be fun and care free. Now all I feel is loss. It wouldn't be fair to anyone new.