What happened?

"Anything you have ever done or has been done to you, could not touch in the slightest, the radiant essence you are."
-Eckhart Tolle

I memorized that quote because it really hit me when I read it years ago. I grew up in severe domestic violence, chaos, and abuse. I'm sorry you felt hurtful words and you thought you weren't enough. I felt that daily and it's torture sometimes. To feel you are inhuman or just less than others. But nothing we did as kids warranted ever feeling we are not enough. Kids are learning, curious and like Adults, fallible. My PTSD today is directly from a cruel parent, for decades of trauma. I'm finally seeing it's not ME that was inept, or worthless, it was their awful behavior that was. There's nothing wrong with you...there really isn't 🐞🌼

I’m so sorry you’ve been carrying all of this pain. It makes so much sense to feel lost and empty when you’ve been through that. I want you to know that you are enough, even if it doesn’t feel that way right now. It’s okay to struggle and to feel overwhelmed. You don’t have to have all the answers or fix everything. I believe in you, and I’m here to support you however you need.

What happened is you failed to consider others reactions to your words and actions.. everything we do has an effect and a reaction from others.. what you do and say matters and i notice you sometimes say and do the wrong things to people which makes them wish to avoid you.. try to be conscious of your words and actions and know that people notice.. don't think they don't

You do have the ability to survive. You just need to find the strength to do it.

Look to God for your help. ☺