What happened?

I was born in a house of 10 people. There was always so much going on and I always felt loved for awhile.

But sometimes people would get disappointed and do and say hurtful things because I wasn't good enough.

And slowly the whole family drifted apart.

Now I'm an adult and nobody wants anything to do with me. Nothing I do for anyone is good enough. There is something seriously wrong with me. I just want to go back to feeling loved and like everything is okay but that will never happen again. Nothing I do is good enough for anyone or anything. What did I do? What didn't I do? Why am I so empty? I can't fix this. I try to do better and I just end up getting worse. I can't keep up with even basic expectations. Why was I put on this Earth with no ability to survive?

YoMomma · 41-45

What happened is you failed to consider others reactions to your words and actions.. everything we do has an effect and a reaction from others.. what you do and say matters and i notice you sometimes say and do the wrong things to people which makes them wish to avoid you.. try to be conscious of your words and actions and know that people notice.. don't think they don't