What happened?

I was born in a house of 10 people. There was always so much going on and I always felt loved for awhile.

But sometimes people would get disappointed and do and say hurtful things because I wasn't good enough.

And slowly the whole family drifted apart.

Now I'm an adult and nobody wants anything to do with me. Nothing I do for anyone is good enough. There is something seriously wrong with me. I just want to go back to feeling loved and like everything is okay but that will never happen again. Nothing I do is good enough for anyone or anything. What did I do? What didn't I do? Why am I so empty? I can't fix this. I try to do better and I just end up getting worse. I can't keep up with even basic expectations. Why was I put on this Earth with no ability to survive?

mindstruggle · 31-35, F

I’m so sorry you’ve been carrying all of this pain. It makes so much sense to feel lost and empty when you’ve been through that. I want you to know that you are enough, even if it doesn’t feel that way right now. It’s okay to struggle and to feel overwhelmed. You don’t have to have all the answers or fix everything. I believe in you, and I’m here to support you however you need.