I can’t bring myself to apply for scholarships. I don’t like begging for money
I know I could qualify for numerous scholarships and the money would surely be helpful, but there’s something about a board of strangers reviewing my inspiration p*rn essay, comparing it to the other trauma turned triumphs stories that feels so degrading.
“Welk, we really like the story about the blind, single mom whose past family trauma made her decide to go into this field, but the essay about the DREAMER in the wheelchair is also pretty good. Who has a higher GPA again? I know they both volunteered, but who did [i]more[/i] volunteer work?”
I can never bring myself to apply. In the end I always decide that the money isn’t worth competing for who has the saddest victory story.
If it comes to me, i wouldn't care how i get there bcz i need money in any possible way, I'd fold my eyes and step on whatever/whoever just to get myself out of where I am.
But taking it from your perspective, i understand that money can be the fold that blinds you sometimes and impede you from questioning every step ahead. This reminds me of the leopard who refused to participate in the dogs racing bcz sometimes proving that you're the best is an insult.
Competition is the rule for scholarships, even tho we all agree that a fish can't prove that it's better than a monkey in climbing trees, the education system doesn't agree. It just break our hearts and individuality to be in it. Thank you for reminding me of that again 😊 I'm in a place where I forgot many things and blamed myself for staying away from education without realizing that education itself was responsible for breaking me. Sadly many hippie souls still engage in this fuckery in fear of ending on the streets. Stay like that, i see it as a power not many people have.
Some hoops I’m OK jumping through because they’re necessary to do what I want to achieve. I’ve definitely made a lot of sacrifices that were worth it to me. As someone else mentioned, I think I would be more comfortable with my name in the hat if it were a friend or a mentor submitting the application on my behalf rather than me competing with the other sad victory stories for the most sad and accomplished of the lot and the rest get rejection letters for not being sad or accomplished enough. I get that it’s free money to open doors. I think part of the issue is that the scholarships I most readily qualify for aren’t from associations I would want my name/story attached to, forever on Google. @Hassan
Well, meditate on emptying your mind from those -obviously blocking!- thoughts and work on your portfolio/essay. Never work either on a full stomach or mind. Now let's follow each other's advices and throw ourselves to work. maybe this -- The Four Agreements are: Be Impeccable With Your Word. Don't Take Anything Personally. Don't Make Assumptions. Always Do Your Best.
You’re right. When it comes to living my values, I do tend to choose the harder road. Sometimes when we live by our values that means making difficult choices over easier ones, like turning down free money even when other people think we should sidestepped our principles for ease or, like a couple other comments, that you’re ungrateful. 🤷🏻♀️@elafina
@WhateverWorks sometimes though, through the process of growing, we re-evaluate our values. And sometimes, the harder road doesn't make us any more saints than what we already are.
I've read Nitsche's 'genealogy of morality' in the past. He stated that we hold onto certain values simply because we were born and raised in lower to middle class. For the casual worker to be able to survive in his psych and keep on going day after day, we turned hard work into a value, the harder the better. We've turned scarsity into pride and we are even willing to fight for it.
I've struggled and still do some days from similar stuff and that's why I am so passionate about it, don't take very personally what I say, i speak for myself too. I've volunteered that much that I ended up paying for the events i did as a volunteer job the money i should have paid my bills with and I kept on struggling and struggling.
Now you decide what to do and there's a variety of choices for everyone. Sometimes a good choice puts us in a difficult situation, sometimes a bad choice brings us to light, so in the end of the day, i will finish with this quote that I love ... "Whatever you do will be of no importance, but it is very important that you do it" .. and will say good luck again ❤️
It’s not about hard work for the sake of hard work. Truthfully, I believe in working smart, not harder, but never at the expense of my ethics. I choose to steer away from practices that I believe are dehumanizing and i’m not interested in trying to talk myself out of my own values because the free money would be more convenient. I’m also not self-destructive though. I’m solution oriented. I don’t agree with how most scholarships pick their pony, so I seek out alternative ways to pay for school that align with my inner compass. Yes, the extra money would be helpful, but the money isn’t worth more than my principles to me and if I need something then I will find or create a way to achieve that without putting my values on the back burner. Is it a longer road? Yes, but I don’t mind as long as I’m achieving what I set out to. @elafina
Apply! Appy! Apply! You have an inner child with a gift at your door. Do not deny the inner child some peace, some serenity, some enjoyment, some self love, ….
Goodness gracious! You got me all worked up! Apply!
You are deserving and will make use of what you receive. Please apply! Don’t second guess! Aaappplllyyy!
@WhateverWorks keep the end in mind, not the process. What could you give back to humanity by accomplishing what is your desire. If you were a see saw - you give more than you receive. What is the end you have in mind and the beginning will make sense.
I probably would if the scholarships were the deciding factor for me to achieve my goal or not. I’m already doing what I need to do with school and what not. The scholarships would be more of a stress reducer financially, but not necessary for the goal @Canuckle
Eh.. I qualified for a grant that covers the majority of my school expenses. Being awarded that was similar to a job application process. I’m grateful for the grant because it focused on my accomplishments and goal orientation, not my personal life. @NiftyWhite
I love how irrationally snippy people have gotten over this issue 🤣
Yes, rather than participating in a process that I believe is dehumanizing, I seek out other ways to pay for school. And yes, whenever I contemplate applying for the scholarships I would qualify for I decide that I still strongly disagree with the process, so I don’t submit. The money doesn’t mean more to me than my principles @DoubleRings
@WhateverWorks I’m not being irrational or snippy. I have zero investment in what you do and your choices don’t affect me. I do think it’s stupid - but you don’t know me either so who cares what I think? Suit yourself. Like I said someone else would love the opportunity and will be happy for less competition.
Generally when I have zero investment in something I don’t get a snippy attitude about it 🤷🏻♀️ At least you recognize that it is a competition though, so it’s not that you don’t understand my perspective. We just don’t have the same values come up with it, which is why you assume I’m ungrateful. I think it’s funny that my post didn’t make any assumptions about other people who choose to participate in whatever scholarship programs or about their reasons, but a couple people assumed that I have some nerve judging the process for sed free money and willfully not participating. How dare I.. lol
😂 you know, I think I would feel better if someone who knew me was writing it and submitting the application on my behalf rather than me personally putting my head on the guillotine @SW-User
