It was my grandmother’s name (Jewel "Bijou" Broussard"). I didn’t get to have her in my life that long, she passed over 50 years ago. But she was always very kind and told me the most amazing stories when I was small.
I joke about worrying that my 90-something father, who surfs the net, may find SW and be puzzled that his long-passed mother has a profile. I even made an avatar from an old photo of hers one Halloween, which was one of her favorite holidays.
It’s a coincidental personality description. Twenty years ago or more, I did something selfish. After a divorce, I hit the road and traveled the US alone for nearly a year and I sent emails to mostly internet friends about my journey. A Turkish engineer suggested that “Mamapolo” should be my name, as I was both a mother and explorer.
That no matter how old I get and how much I think I know, life still has lessons to teach, sometimes the hard way. And since there’s apparently no statute of limitations on learning the hard way, any true wisdom must hold a place for humility and open mindedness.
It never meant anything special but after some people called me CML, it made me realize that's my identity in the eyes of the others on here. But to me personally, I created this account to talk about music and knowing most of what I listen to is not conventional, I called it crazy. In short, I needed a username and had to come up with something.
It is a reminder. That where I am, it is I, and to move from this place. A reminder that there's nothing needed, all is here. And if I am to move towards something or any direction, either physical movement or the movement of attention, or action, to always consider the center, and move from alignment, from the wholeness of my being.
