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I regret becoming a mom...

Before i got pregnant i had time to sleep and be lazy, thats what i miss the most. Now im always on edge. My mental health is declining and im on meds. Meds that make me feel drowsy but i cant sleep because i have a kid to take care of. I loved being in the gym. But im so tired and now i have flat feet i cant even walk a mile and do abs after. Im declining so bad.

Whats even worse is my mental health meds made me gain 100 something pounds. I look and feel terrible.
I dont regret my son 1 bit but motherhood isnt for me. And im trying to be strong. Idk how the hell other women had 3.. this shit is impossible to do
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AngelUnforgiven · 51-55, F
Could be postpartum depression. Some women have it for years, if he's 2 then it may be a strong possibility. It's all about balance you have to make time for yourself. Talk to your doctor maybe B-12 or something will get you some energy. My 2, are 3 years apart so I had a 2 year old and newborn, believe me I get it. The years zoomed by before you know it he will be more independent, and won't require you for every little need, just hang in there. Make a plan. I was telling my soulmate the other day about how my daughter was making her own sandwiches and bowls of cereal at 3. I was pregnant, overslept one day and she was hungry she pulled out some ham, bread, got a saucer made a sandwich, plus got herself a bag of chips, she said I'm hungry and I'm not waiting for Mom to wake up. It gets easier! They were both reading by 3 years old. Motherhood was not hard for me at all when they were young.
Justmeraeagain · 56-60, F
Please seek help for both you and your son.
Talking to a therapist ,life coach, other moms and figuring out how to handle your time in a way you can get back to doing some things you love doing.
I'm not sure what your financial situation is, but maybe a couple days your child could go to daycare so you could have somewhat of a break?
Are your parents in the picture they may babysit?
Some cities have programs to help people that don't have the money to send their child to daycare a few times a week, that might be something to look into.
Head start is a program, that once a child is potty trained , they can go to a preschool a few days a week .
Even provide transportation.
Thank you for sharing. This is a real taboo subject. Nobody is supposed to regret having children. In fact, many people do, they just don't talk about it. Louis CK had a routine where he said he loved his daughter, but regretted every decision he made that led to her birth. The Albert Brooks film Mother with Debbie Reynolds explores this exact issue.

Fewer people in your age group are having kids, and the reasons aren't just economic. More people are becoming aware of the absurd sacrifices and the toll children take on your mental and physical health, and are deciding that they don't want that, despite the pressure society exerts to make everyone think that their lives are meaningless without children.

All I can say is to hang in there. If you think it's bad now, wait until he's a teenager. But the relationship with an adult child is amazing if you can survive that long.
morrgin · F
Sometimes you know its more than having baby blues and if thats the case try and seek help. Im not sure how old your child is but if the baby is very young I know they wake up a lot and then get a cold or something on top of that, but i promise it wont last forever. If you have the money theres nothing wrong with daycare for a couple of hours either.
The weight gain, can become all consuming depression. The hardest part of exercising is when you just start and its so hard to start when you're depressed.
My therapist told me something Ive been trying to follow. They told me our bodies love our moods. Like I want to just lay in bed or sit on the couch because im depressed. My depression says sitting here feels better than getting up and doing something so i go with it. But im supposed to do the opposite of what my mood gets my body to agree with. I have to go walk when my body says this is more comfortable right here. Its hard, but Im getting better at it.
Cute987 · 31-35, F
@morrgin good job and thank you
mumsarahuk · 31-35, F
we all go through our ups and downs motherhood hun. I know when i had jenna 4 years ago i felt so much sadness and i couldnt work out why. But these days I love being a Mum. Stay strong hun x
@mumsarahuk as a single dad I am in total agreement
Fieldmaster · 46-50, M
I am sorry to hear that, i hope you are able to get family support, that would make huge difference in your life. You do not have to do it all by yourself and do not have to be a perfect mother. Please seek out help from family and friends. It is crucial for you and your new child. Motherhood is not one person job. It take a village to raise child.
Ilovelily1986 · 36-40, F
Does your gym have a area just for small kid's my gym does. If u have a stroller take your child for a walk.
Cute987 · 31-35, F
@Ilovelily1986 there are days where i cant get off the couch. Im going to make myself take him on a walk today
Ilovelily1986 · 36-40, F
@Cute987 part of that 100 pounds is most likely pregnancy weight. When u start to get more active with your child that will go away. I do agree u need to get out just not in the heat I would get out early in the morning or right before dark
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LordBarbossa · 36-40, T
Motherhood isn't for everyone. I'm sorry you didn't realize until you had your son.
Cute987 · 31-35, F
@LordBarbossa i was sure i was ready to be a mom. Even a better mom than my mom
LordBarbossa · 36-40, T
@Cute987 it sounds like you love your son, so I have no doubt you're doing the best you can. But it also sounds like you weren't fully prepared to make him your no1 priority and everything that comes with having a child.

Not judging, just speaking my mind here. Maybe get a baby sitter once a week to have a night to yourself and whatever you need to feel like an individual?
Cute987 · 31-35, F
@LordBarbossa i just signed him up for head start
exchrist · 31-35
Can you leave you child with family or friends for a few days or a week; its summer. Then you can get some rest for a bit at least
Cute987 · 31-35, F
@exchrist no everyone works. My mom will keep him for a few hours for me
exchrist · 31-35
@Cute987 thats something at least a respite here or there. Its a lifetime of trials and tribulations. Enjoy every moment.
samueltyler2 · 80-89, M
So sorry to hear.
DearAmbellina2113 · 41-45, F
Sorry you realized too late. Just do the best you can.
HotPizza71 · 51-55, M
Don't bottle it up,talk to friends who'll listen and a professional x
Are you on your own with this child? Are there any people in your life who could be giving you more support?
Cute987 · 31-35, F
@ThePatientAnarchist i have my sons father and my mom mostly
@Cute987 I hope they can take some of the burden off you.
robbie2499 · 61-69, F
If I may ask, how old is your child?
robbie2499 · 61-69, F
@Cute987 Those are very difficult years, I remember well. Your life won't always be this way (I know it's easy for me to say). In the blink of my eye my son went from 2 to 35 years old. It goes so fast, and your hard times will be a memory before you know it. :)
Cute987 · 31-35, F
@robbie2499 thanks robbie. I think ill be fine once he goes to school. Even pre k then i can be lazy all day
robbie2499 · 61-69, F
@Cute987 I wish you all the best! It's certainly not an easy journey.
Reason10 · 70-79, M
It's not impossible. And what you're going through is not unusual, so don't feel like there's something wrong with you. A lot of new mothers experience what some professionals call "baby blues." Bottom line, you're not a monster for feeling any regrets for this miraculous decision.

You're very lucky in that you will have a BABY in your life. That BABY will turn into a son. You have all those wonderful years with this unique growing human being, this PART OF YOU. Nothing else, that baby is YOU. You are basically taking care of YOURSELF.

I have two adult daughter and a granddaughter. I wouldn't trade one second of my time with them for anything. It was the best part of my life. Your SON will be the best part of your life.

Your energy will return. You'll get back into the gym. You just need, (at least for now) to cut yourself a break. It's not going to be like this forever. Things will level off and a child with your face will steal a bit of your heart every time he looks at you and gives you that smile.
Cute987 · 31-35, F
@Reason10 this seriously mellowed me out. Thank you so much for the kind words. My son is 2 and when i feel like i cant take it anymore he looks at me with my eyes and i feel nothing but love. Tired but in love lol
Reason10 · 70-79, M
Oh, by the way: You'll have all sorts of folks (me included) giving you advice here and there, but unless they have had kids they don't know. You are going to become the EXPERT. Your son has a user's manual.

In a few years you'll be able to write a book about motherhood.

 
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