Father was in and out due to his own issues. Though I had many surrogates. Shared a two family house with my Grandparents growing up. My Brother and Grandfather were huge inspirations. My 4 Uncles poured into me as well. All were shining examples of manhood I carry with me to this day.
Only every so often when i was little but i'm glad he was gone. I think i turned out better for not having him around. He keeps trying to have a "relationship" with me now that he is ill, but i'm not really interested. i DID however have other older male humans who unofficially adopted me a few times.
@meggie I would like to say "I'm sorry" , but I don't know how you feel about it. Thank you for the response either way and wish all things are good for you despite his absence.