So the doctor says I'm not eating enough

@HootyTheNightOwl yeah I get what you are saying. And trust me he would never really give our boys cellphones because they would not only text me but him as well lol

But having him text me around lunch time I think will be good.

I wish my daughter wasn't with us at the appointment. I don't like that she is worried about me. She is going though a lot right now and this shouldn't be something on her mind.

We are actually looking into finding me a therapist that specializes in eating disorders. We also go to a support group for eating disorder as well. I have not shared there yet because I don't think I'm ready but going helps me. Knowing I'm not alone in this helps

I hope you are doing ok with your struggles.

@Cigarguy101 Lol, he'd just love that at work then "Dad, I just gotta tell you this thing that can't wait until you get home..." 🤣🤣🤣

Yes, one reminder can be good - and maybe keeping a food diary of what you consume might help you to track your average calories over the course of the day, too... especially if you're looking to get up to 2.500kcal recommended for an adult man. If you wanted to, you could also use that to reassure your daughter that you're trying and that Joel and yourself have it in progress.

I actually tried to seek a nutritionist to help me with my eating disorder because we know that I definitely have a B12 deficiency - so, who knows what else I could be hiding in terms of deficiencies.

My problem is that I don't get hungry - though, I do feel the fullness cues as I eat... a little sooner than I probably should at times, so I'm concerned that my stomach might need further expansion, or I need to learn about proper portion sizes again, I'm not sure which???

I can't get help because I'm overweight - therefore "I can't have an eating disorder". Yes, the doctor actually scoffed when I asked and told me to cut down on snacks that I wasn't eating... so I'm having to get through it as best as I can by myself at the same time as trying to understand how my other known conditions will interplay with my eating disorder.

@HootyTheNightOwl oh Lord that would be our youngest too. I may not allow him to have a fun until he's 16 lol

I'm so sorry your doctor did that to you. That is horrible. I went though a similar thing trying to get help with tourette's. The doctor I went to told me I was to old and he couldn't help me. He said find a way to live with it or go on disability. I don't get how someone who is supposed to help you can be so cruel.

I think right now we're just focusing on getting me to eat more than one small thing a day. One step at a time.

@Cigarguy101 Well then now you are starting a new treatment plan.
So this is a thread of hope
And you should be proud of yourself for getting to this point with this struggle.
This is inspiring. Keep the effort and you shall be rewarded.

@Friendlyperson you are right and deep down I know this, I just feel hopeless when I get like this. I will be ok once I get some sleep. I've been up over 48 hours now. Even my sleeping pills didn't work last night.

@Cigarguy101 Lack of sleep also wrecks your thoughts and ogic and messes with emotions, regardless of any MH issue.
I wish you get some well deserved rest 🙏🏼

@4meAndyou I was stupid yesterday and I ate a little bit for breakfast but didn't eat the rest of the day. I got busy helping the boys and cleaning up and then we got home and I went into OCD cleaning mode. Joel even asked me if I ate and I said yes because in my mind I ate something that day. I didn't eat breakfast and I had a bowl of soup for lunch today.

@Cigarguy101 lol

That's what addicted people always say.

smh

I'm out.

@SomeMichGuy thank you again for giving me advice and trying to help.

@Cigarguy101 Ummm...ok. Good bye