I Am Sad

A good deal of the time these days, that's where I am, too.

I can understand how you are feeling. I was feeling like this before the lockdown then I started to start my life again. Then lockdown happened. I was actually doing well. But dad died and some days I've actually just been sat on the sofa for hours on end not had a drink or eaten, even been to the toilet.
I was happy two days ago then met my mum who was feeling low and has been so depressed she doesn't move. Seeing her she looked so miserable, sleepless and not as groomed as usual. U understand. But seeing her like that set me back.
I spent the next day in bed all day. I guess I picked up her energy. For years I've tried to help her psychologically but I have come to the understanding that she enjoys feeling like this. (not because it's fun, but because she's hardly ill, a break mentally means she gets to stop for a period of time)
I kind of understand that but these breaks can last 6 months--a year. She will go to work but all over things seize to exist. Including maintaining her home and her food cupboards bare or expired.
Washing up piled up and mouldy.

I respect that you have sought out help. I urge you to listening to headspace too.
They are really good for anxiety. I say this because it's about reconditioning your brain. You feel lethargic and anxious but listening to someone or something trying to soothe you eventually takes effect.
If you like hip hop there's a guy called londrelle he does hip hop meditation.
He is life.
Sorry I'm rambling and probably isn't helping your anxiety. But I've learned staying stagnant for long periods of time actually enhances anxiety.
Noones saying ignore pausing if that's what you need to do as it's good for you and noones saying being so busy you never take a break because that is just as unhealthy it's about finding a balance for your body at that time. And the resources to accommodate those feelings...

You are not alone.
I fight this every day. And I'm always happy to try and help if I can.
But if my proactive doing approach is too much I understand too. It's not for everyone.

Isolation does that. It's terrible for our mental health. People need to socialize.

Use this place as you have been, like a dumping ground. If it's any comfort, know that you're not alone in how you're feeling. 🤗

Things will pan out, we need to learn to adapt to this new way of life.

The virus isn’t going anywhere, but we can live around it.

Different from our old life, we embrace this change, we have to.

It's normal to feel isolated by anxiety, and driven to seek the company of others. Continue to reach out to people, here, and in person. Remain connected, that's critical right now. Even if you feel it makes little difference; that's only the anxiety talking.

We need the fellowship and support of each other, in good times and bad. Seeking it doesn't make you needy, only human.


In time your counselling will identify the cause and you'll heal. The things you love will bring joy to your life again; and blue sky will be more attractive than bed.

All the best.

You need to find yourself , especially what you have lost.

Secondly, eat foods that are anti inflammatory. Depression is linked to inflammation.

Third, get some exercise done. Sure it can be super hard to do when you are depressed but you know, you can make it fun. A jump rope is the ideal tool.


All of these still are only the basic foundation. Remember, the only person who can pull yourself out of this is YOU.