I Am Sad

Lately I've been using SW as my feelings dump.

Almost 1pm here and I am still in my pyjamas, I dont want to leave my bed. In fact I would sleep all day if I didnt have stuff to do.

I feel physically sick all the time, due to anxiousness and I dont eat or drink much. Yesterday I only had dinner and a little bit of soda.

Tomorrow I will finally speak to a counsellor and even though I have friends who have been there for me I still feel alone.

I want to rewind back to a time that I didnt feel this way, back to a time that I could see my bf. I feel like I have reverted to a childish needy like state and I hate it. I hate feeling like I need people around constantly.

I dont even look forward to my hobbies much anymore, I just look forward to being asleep.

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SW-User

Isolation does that. It's terrible for our mental health. People need to socialize.

Use this place as you have been, like a dumping ground. If it's any comfort, know that you're not alone in how you're feeling. 🤗

MissMoon · 26-30, F

@SW-User Thank you 😊 Yeah, a lot of the issues are linked to this lockdown.

If I could flip a switch and make covid19 not exist, I'd do it in a heartbeat

SW-User

@MissMoon

Me too.

I think you're handling it better than most. You're being constructive in that you're writing about how you feel, getting all the negative out, and, you've made an appointment to speak with a counselor. He/she should have some good coping suggestions.

Can you Zoom, Skype, or whatever you use, to video chat with friends? Maybe schedule an online "party" with them. I've done that. It does help.

MissMoon · 26-30, F

@SW-User I've been calling my boyfriend and occasionally friends. My laptop acts up when I put on my webcam so it's mostly just been voice calls. Me and my boyfriend might call after counselling tomorrow