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I Have Thought About Suicde

I'm 20 right now. And.. im reaching the end of my story. i know its pathetic and its funny but umm.. my entire life i was told that i could be anything i want. it's no one's fault except mines in believing that i could change the world or be something significant. Every year I live, I don't know if it's God or fate or that I am truly unlucky; something that makes me happy , something that makes me live, something that gives me a purpose is taken away from me... When i was a kid all I wanted was to be an adult but now that I'm an adult all i want is someone or something to end my life. I understand I'm not strong, just.. i feel life would be better. I try so hard to be successful and all I get is a bunch of unfortunate events that make me fail. If anything happens all i wanna say is.. I forgive everybody and i leave this world at peace. no grudges or anything. just acceptance and happiness. I hope some other person lost and stuck in the past is stronger than me. perhaps God gives me another chance...

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Txpixie · 56-60, F

You are 20. Let me tell you something, you haven't even begun to live yet!
You have things going on that are preventing you from succeeding ?? That's the challenge! Step up to the plate and kick ass even harder!
Life is all perception, my young friend. The only failure in life is quitting it.
So you failed at succeeding in something. Well, you have two choices: keep at it or say fuck it, this isn't meant to be and I am going to focus on something else.
Failures are lessons and nothing more. They certainly do not define us. They strengthen us, they motivate us, they push us towards the direction of where we are supposed to be. Where God wants us to be. Do you have faith? Truly think about what that means. Trust in it with all that you are. Let that be your strength and peace above all else.
Let yourself continue to grow up. Share the very best of yourself within this life. We are the difference it takes to make all the difference in the world and to each other.
Never ever fucking give up❤️

Bendu17 · 22-25, M

I can relate to feeling like you've been cheated by life. I have been very ill since I was a mere infant. I received a feeding tube at the age of 18 months, I'm 17 now and I still have it, and my doctors have recently said that it will be nearly impossible for me to live without it. Despite this harsh reality, I try not to let it hold me back from achieving my goals in life.

The point I am trying to make is:Our reality can be rather cold and unforgiving. But, please don't end here, you are only 20 years old. You have pretty much just begun life in the real world. I'm quite sure that your circumstances will improve. Please don't give succumb to the pressure of life, I am certain that you are stronger than what you think. Hang in there.

Best of wishes.

Hope70 · F

I wouldn't be here today with out God and my faith. There were times I wanted to quit and give up but I found the strength to push on each day. I'm glad today that I never gave up. God had a plan for me and he has one for you. Life isn't always easy but everything I have been through was for a purpose and I use it to help others have hope. Hang in there and you will make it though whatever your going though. Someday you will look back and understand and learn from the difficulties and use them to make you a stronger person.

JoshuaCo19 · 26-30, M

@Hope70 i guess. the grass is greener in the other side. just so far, my foundation of life has collapsed and i've gotten things taken away to the point where i feel it'll be better if I'm died. I feel i'll be less of a burden.

drymer · 56-60, M

@Hope70 Well I'm 51 and I'm still waiting to know what "God plan for me" is... Waiting to know what my mission and purpose are... I have a distinct feeling that, whatever it was, it doesn't matter to Him anymore...
😒

Hope70 · F

Joshua-I've been around the world and have shared my story of my life. My life has been full of trials since I've been a young kid. I could of let those experiences continue to leave me in chains and control my life. But I decided to instead of feeling sorry for myself, being depressed, and letting them win, I fought back and turned all those bad things into something good. You have the power and ability within yourself to change your life. Reach within the depths of yourself and you can do anything you put your mind to.

drymer · 56-60, M

I understand... I think parents these days are so focused of giving their children a "happy childhood" that they'll try to portray the world and everything in it as "nice and beautiful". If a parent tries to be sincere and explain to their kids that the world is actually a harsh place, very unfair, that happiness is extremely elusive, that success requires a significant dose of good luck, besides the hard work and good intentions, then they're considered "heartless" by trying to take the child's "innocence" away... Parents try to shelter their kids from the nasty real world, and this results in kids who become adults that are completely unprepared emotionally and intellectually to face the reality that the world is not the fairy tale that the parents wanted it to be... Most parents are too naive and unprepared themselves...

LoveLove

I thought my life was over 2 years ago but I'm thriving now. I know it's hard but try to hang in there

HelloHelloNde · M

Hang in there you can turn your life around

CuriousMind · F

We all go through difficult times. However, you are young and adjusting to changes. It takes time to get where you want and achieve goals. Maybe you need guidance. Learn from others. Just don't give up.

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