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I Have Thought About Suicde

I'm 20 right now. And.. im reaching the end of my story. i know its pathetic and its funny but umm.. my entire life i was told that i could be anything i want. it's no one's fault except mines in believing that i could change the world or be something significant. Every year I live, I don't know if it's God or fate or that I am truly unlucky; something that makes me happy , something that makes me live, something that gives me a purpose is taken away from me... When i was a kid all I wanted was to be an adult but now that I'm an adult all i want is someone or something to end my life. I understand I'm not strong, just.. i feel life would be better. I try so hard to be successful and all I get is a bunch of unfortunate events that make me fail. If anything happens all i wanna say is.. I forgive everybody and i leave this world at peace. no grudges or anything. just acceptance and happiness. I hope some other person lost and stuck in the past is stronger than me. perhaps God gives me another chance...

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Bendu17 · 22-25, M

I can relate to feeling like you've been cheated by life. I have been very ill since I was a mere infant. I received a feeding tube at the age of 18 months, I'm 17 now and I still have it, and my doctors have recently said that it will be nearly impossible for me to live without it. Despite this harsh reality, I try not to let it hold me back from achieving my goals in life.

The point I am trying to make is:Our reality can be rather cold and unforgiving. But, please don't end here, you are only 20 years old. You have pretty much just begun life in the real world. I'm quite sure that your circumstances will improve. Please don't give succumb to the pressure of life, I am certain that you are stronger than what you think. Hang in there.

Best of wishes.