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I Have Thought About Suicde

I'm 20 right now. And.. im reaching the end of my story. i know its pathetic and its funny but umm.. my entire life i was told that i could be anything i want. it's no one's fault except mines in believing that i could change the world or be something significant. Every year I live, I don't know if it's God or fate or that I am truly unlucky; something that makes me happy , something that makes me live, something that gives me a purpose is taken away from me... When i was a kid all I wanted was to be an adult but now that I'm an adult all i want is someone or something to end my life. I understand I'm not strong, just.. i feel life would be better. I try so hard to be successful and all I get is a bunch of unfortunate events that make me fail. If anything happens all i wanna say is.. I forgive everybody and i leave this world at peace. no grudges or anything. just acceptance and happiness. I hope some other person lost and stuck in the past is stronger than me. perhaps God gives me another chance...

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drymer · 56-60, M

I understand... I think parents these days are so focused of giving their children a "happy childhood" that they'll try to portray the world and everything in it as "nice and beautiful". If a parent tries to be sincere and explain to their kids that the world is actually a harsh place, very unfair, that happiness is extremely elusive, that success requires a significant dose of good luck, besides the hard work and good intentions, then they're considered "heartless" by trying to take the child's "innocence" away... Parents try to shelter their kids from the nasty real world, and this results in kids who become adults that are completely unprepared emotionally and intellectually to face the reality that the world is not the fairy tale that the parents wanted it to be... Most parents are too naive and unprepared themselves...