And I'm having sucidal thoughts... This self harm to my forehead has been going on for years... YEARS... I dont know how to stop when It starts... This is going to be scary for me because I cant keep living like this anymore... its ruining my life. And I dont want to keep living if it's going to be like this...
My birthday is this month...
I will try to make it until then
But I feel so serious about this thought, I dont know who to talk to. Because I dont know what to say about all this...
I am pouring my eyes out. I really dont know how long I'm going to make it... until this ends me in a moment of madness.
I used to be beautiful b4 all this... and I didnt even like myself...
You have not lost anything you can’t recover. It will take some small continual steps to build yourself into someone you can appreciate and actively protect from the self harm that you currently are acting on. You do need help from professionals but if you need a voice to talk to, I am always available for you Em.
Oh honey. Wrapping you up in a huge hug. I use to self harm and I had the same thoughts and even an attempt. I know that right now it’s hard to see past all the thoughts in your head and climbing out of that hole feels impossible. I want you to know there is help and there is hope. Please please,please, right now make a call to the suicide intervention hotline or go to the ER. They can help. It’s really hard I know to take that first step. But you are a precious life and you have hope of so many good things to come. Your life before this moment does not define you. You get to choose What defines you. Fight for yourself. You won’t regret it
Thanks for sharing your pain. It means. A lot to me. You are still beautiful. There’s nothing I can do or say to make it better. Just know you can talk with me anytime. Alright?
Your skin does not define you. Your habit doesn't make you bad. If you have no one else call this number. You can at least talk to a real human. 1-800-273-8255. Then when you have calmed down call to make an appointment with a therapist.
