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Possible trigger. For those with trauma .....

Have you ever come out of shock unable to speak and type as well as you once did ? You can write fine and think fine. You are just short with words and quiet? I hate it so much. I can't trust anyone and I can't make any friends anymore. I'm just sitting and waiting to be free again .
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AngelUnforgiven · 51-55, F
I used to write poetry and i had to stop because it happened to me i boiled it down to writers block but i have thoughts and memories that creep up ever so often and i have to like shake it off and veer my thoughts away from it. I lost a son and a daughter, my daughter was born 1st so i have her hospital gown, hat, footprints, birth card from her incubator and hospital bracelet in a frame. As well as a necklace set that her grandmother bought for her that she never got to wear. My MIL had my oldest daughter, which was her 1st grandchild's portrait painted, so i put that painting in front of the other stuff in the frame. And i Put in the garage. I told my husband years ago that i dont want it in the house, I cant bear to look at it, My husband was cleaning the garage last week and brought it into the house and it all all just came flooding back. So i was like that i couldn't write notes at work, it felt like my fingers were just numb. I color a lot with color pencils and couldn't do that either, It took me to go to happy place and just block it all out again, and think about other things. Even my signature looks different at times. It feel like i forget how to write it if that makes sense.
@AngelUnforgiven I am very sorry.
itsok · 31-35, F
Absolutely. There are different levels to it. Sometimes I cannot form a word or phrase in my head even if I’m trying to.
There have been longer stretches where communicating is just very difficult.
I had a problem with selective mutism 17 years ago
Justmeraeagain · 56-60, F
I'm very cautious what I say around someone who's decided I was their enemy.
I have no reason why they've come to that conclusion I've only tried to help them.
Since that's been happening they complaining of me being cold.
But if being cold keeps my sanity I guess that's what I'm going to be.
In a way. When I was young, I actually went through a period where I couldn't physically speak to anyone except my mom
@Bexsy I'm so sorry .
@SpiritSkye i hope you find comfort soon
@Bexsy Thank you. I just want to be the way I was again.
Cassieeeee · 31-35, F
Yes, specially when I first started therapy and started processing everything at once.. But it still happens at times.
You mean like when your mind is all there but you feel inhibited? Kinda like being a clumsy child again... I get that if that's what you mean.
robbie2499 · 61-69, F
This is very sad and certainly no way to live. I wish you all the best!
MyNameIsHurl · 41-45, F
I'm sorry ☹

 
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