Trauma dump post! Lets just let it all out here!!!
I was abused my whole life, I have actual daddy issues and mommy issues, and I genuinely feel alone in the world. ☺️
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elafina · 36-40, F
Oh I have some huge money blocks I'm trying to remove but jeez
I've been depressed for so many years it feels as if I was wasting my time. But I just needed to be resting. I had no guidance that I could accept.
Grew up in a hostile home, trying nowadays to see and appreciate the good. But still it's like, I'm coming from a hurricane.
My blood pressure, heart, my breathing, shredded shoulders, voice, everything I had to relearn and get back to sanity.
The boyfriends I'd pick. Drugs, alcohol, poor food choices. Sleeping on sunrise.
Thank you for this. I need to remember where I came from.
I've been depressed for so many years it feels as if I was wasting my time. But I just needed to be resting. I had no guidance that I could accept.
Grew up in a hostile home, trying nowadays to see and appreciate the good. But still it's like, I'm coming from a hurricane.
My blood pressure, heart, my breathing, shredded shoulders, voice, everything I had to relearn and get back to sanity.
The boyfriends I'd pick. Drugs, alcohol, poor food choices. Sleeping on sunrise.
Thank you for this. I need to remember where I came from.
I was going to post this last night but everytime i started writing id have to stop im gonna try this morning. ***tw****
Childhood sexual/physical/verbal/emotional abuse at the hands of family. Drunk of a father & narcissistic of a mother. Brother who is a junkie another brother who died. My first loved died in a car accident when we were young. Lost of people ive loved, the only real adults in my life who didnt hurt me died 20 days apart and it destroyed me. I survived a sexual assault that has left me with physical and invisable scars that will never ever go away. I had very high risk pregnancies and tramuatic childbirths. I have battled with illness and currently going through a very nasty and hostile divorce. Ive my struggles with addiction with alcohol, narcotics and self harm that im currently working through a relapse. Depression/selfharm/suicidal thoughts and attempts are something that im all too familiar with.
Childhood sexual/physical/verbal/emotional abuse at the hands of family. Drunk of a father & narcissistic of a mother. Brother who is a junkie another brother who died. My first loved died in a car accident when we were young. Lost of people ive loved, the only real adults in my life who didnt hurt me died 20 days apart and it destroyed me. I survived a sexual assault that has left me with physical and invisable scars that will never ever go away. I had very high risk pregnancies and tramuatic childbirths. I have battled with illness and currently going through a very nasty and hostile divorce. Ive my struggles with addiction with alcohol, narcotics and self harm that im currently working through a relapse. Depression/selfharm/suicidal thoughts and attempts are something that im all too familiar with.
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BornScum · 36-40, M
@CrazyMusicLover What do you mean burnt? I just typed a 2 paragraph reply and then read your reply before posting. I don't wanna get burnt.
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MyNameIsHurl · 41-45, F
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