Do you live like it could be your last day?

Sometimes I think of that song Live Like You Were Dying by Tim McGraw. With my dad's aggressive sudden illness and passing this year, and now my neighbor today passing, I sometimes think more often, when is my time? I'm 44 but who knows if something happens ? My dad got aggressive cancer, what if I do too? I don't take many risks at all and I'm barely surviving due to chronic PTSD. I really want to start living, but it's difficult with a chronic mental health issue, and no job.
Do you live in the Now? Live for today and try to take risks? Or feel you're just surviving?

Baybreeze · 41-45, F

@Dainbramadge That is so truly kind , thank you for such a gracious compliment. 🌹
And I appreciate you offering to chat about any of these issues too.

Dainbramadge · 56-60, M

@Baybreeze :-) I know I am a bit of an odd ball but I really do have a lot of life experience with way to many mental health issues than I care to admit. LOL
I am going to try to work on that song of yours, Phil Collins, tonight.
I have already saved your vocal track and ran it through the mixer and added reverb and some filters to take the open mic hiss out.
It turned out real good.
Also it sounds like you keep pretty good time which is good but not a must.
I looked that song up and remembered it but had to get some music for it for some stupid reasons I could ramble on for hours. LOL
I have a lot going on right now and am looking forward to avoiding the stuff I need to get done attempting to add my guitar to your vocal track. :-)

PiecingBabyFaceTogether · 31-35, M

I can't do that. I'm definitely just surviving on the hope of a better tomorrow. It's really hard due to my chronic physical illness too. It's incurable and keeps degrading as time goes by. I think by the time I get somewhere better in life my illness would be in it's last stages and that idea is not easy to live with. Sometimes I'm not sure why I'm even still alive.