Does life ever seem not *Real* sometimes?

For a few years it was like this for me, I felt like I was just watching everyone else have fun whilst I just sat at home and cried. Life can change though and while it’s still not perfect and I still sometimes wish for more, it is pretty good.
I’m sure things will get better for you, you’re a really cool, nice person.

I have felt that way in the past. But as of late i'm the happiest that i've ever been. I feel so blessed and thankful. Things could always be worse.

I feel like I’m just lazy and have no interest in doing those things. Work takes a lot out of me. I do social stuff with my kids but that’s all I’m interested in doing

I have been noticing that the older I get, the more it happens. It's not even a Earth shattering epiphany or feeling. It just..... is. When I stop to ponder with the heck is this, and nothing seems to materialize. I just shrug and just say "why?" to myself. Which in most cases I have forgotten what it was I was even doing 5 seconds ago.

Yup. I can't figure it out at all

Literally always.