What’s it like to not live in fear of your parents judgment? Sometimes I wonder who I’d be if...

Coralmist · 41-45, F

For me it's a bit similar but not entirely. My mom is a volatile, abusive narcissist who controlled my every fiber, my every move. I developed PTSD over time from severe psychological abuse daily. She'd taunt me, mock me, scream, and threaten me. This was everyday, for YEARS AND YEARS. I now as an adult feel like an inhuman shell.

Trying to develop a self is proving very difficult. All my doubts, lead back to the trauma I had growing up. So I know a bit of what you mean even though not exact. I basically have to silence my self doubts, because they are her bully voice. And I have so many doubts, it's been crippling.

Nat54 · 41-45, F

Interesting question. My parents were taken well before their time (car accident) but I still imagine them both when I do something. Especially dad, he was a harsh man.

fun4us2b · M

Mine have both passed - but I still follow what they would think....

It's a good circuit breaker for us so we don't mess up too bad...

Not the worst thing in the world when you think about it...

ToLivePeacefully · 31-35, M

I never had that issue.

Also I take care of everything when it comes to my family so I think they don't have much to judge.

Also I judge myself harder than anyone can.