Midlife crisis time?

Deep feelings of unrest. Of feeling like I should have been more successful by this point in life, without even really knowing what that means. Just discontent with how far I've made it. Of feeling lonely. Of feeling like I should be doing something more real and meaningful.

I'm a bit too aware to to go out and get the sporty convertible. But if I weren't disabled I might have jumped on the sell everything and go try to homestead train that seems to be inflicting people that his the fact that they are in reality far wealthier than me. 😅

But yeah, I've been equal parts restless and exhausted lately. And it has come with a lot of reflection.