i really just wanted to be normal.

@looping It could be, depending on what you consider normal. Anything specific that you feel is making things harder for you?

@Imsleepy zero motivation, self pity, laziness, chronic loneliness, constant mood swings. it's very exhausting.

@looping That's understandable. Motivation can be hard to find if you've lost it. The thing that helped me was setting a schedule and forcing myself to stick to it. Though, everyone is different, I recommend trying to find your passion and spend time working toward/enjoying that. Exercise and writing your thoughts down could help too. The big key is to try to stay consistent, especially on the days you don't want to. Either way, I hope things get better for you.