Long post helps to write it out
I’m trying not to let myself get in this bad mindset. It’s no good to sit here depressed although I know sometimes it is just how it is.
So I laid in bed and I just thought of all the things I’m stressed about and the solutions.
1. my dogs eye is irritated and my mom fought me to take her to the vet yesterday. Solution: I know my family will do the right thing if it doesn’t get better and it already looks better.
2. I realized my doctor never gave me a time on my surgery on April 3rd to come in. Solution: so I’ll call them. They aren’t going to cancel. Likely forgot to discuss it with me. But I have an apt that day, so I’m sure they know the time.
3. My fiance and I have been fighting and not speaking for a week. This one is a big one because the reality isn’t as black and white. Ultimately we either work it out or we don’t. Time is the only thing that will help.
4. My weight has platued. Solution: it is part of the process. I’m doing right, I haven’t messed up. It just takes time.
5. Worried about getting my last paycheck from my previous job. Solution: will call everyday starting payday until personnel finally answers. (Haven’t had luck). Because I will go in if she’s there. If she ignores me, I will ask my brother who still works there when she’s there and go in.
6. My teeth. I’m neurotic about my teeth. And I’ve had several appointments in the past year and they’ve told me that they’re fine. I had to cancel my latest due to losing dental insurance but again, they’ve never said they are in bad shape.
7. Money. When I quit my job, it meant being without one for a month until my next starts. Due to my surgery. But I’m not in a ton of debt and I’ll get going again once I start the job and get paid.
8. Sometimes I still get depressed about my car. I guess about being wronged. A guy hit my car, didn’t have insurance and because my uninsured motorist coverage didn’t cover damage to the car, it left me with nothing. I paid to sue as well and he never paid me. I’m bitter and one day probably in 6 months I’ll have a new car and can put it behind me.
9. Feel like a loser. You know I tell myself I have come far. I nailed my last interview. I speak more like an adult. And yes I grew up late. But I’ve changed and I don’t feel incapable of life.
So I laid in bed and I just thought of all the things I’m stressed about and the solutions.
1. my dogs eye is irritated and my mom fought me to take her to the vet yesterday. Solution: I know my family will do the right thing if it doesn’t get better and it already looks better.
2. I realized my doctor never gave me a time on my surgery on April 3rd to come in. Solution: so I’ll call them. They aren’t going to cancel. Likely forgot to discuss it with me. But I have an apt that day, so I’m sure they know the time.
3. My fiance and I have been fighting and not speaking for a week. This one is a big one because the reality isn’t as black and white. Ultimately we either work it out or we don’t. Time is the only thing that will help.
4. My weight has platued. Solution: it is part of the process. I’m doing right, I haven’t messed up. It just takes time.
5. Worried about getting my last paycheck from my previous job. Solution: will call everyday starting payday until personnel finally answers. (Haven’t had luck). Because I will go in if she’s there. If she ignores me, I will ask my brother who still works there when she’s there and go in.
6. My teeth. I’m neurotic about my teeth. And I’ve had several appointments in the past year and they’ve told me that they’re fine. I had to cancel my latest due to losing dental insurance but again, they’ve never said they are in bad shape.
7. Money. When I quit my job, it meant being without one for a month until my next starts. Due to my surgery. But I’m not in a ton of debt and I’ll get going again once I start the job and get paid.
8. Sometimes I still get depressed about my car. I guess about being wronged. A guy hit my car, didn’t have insurance and because my uninsured motorist coverage didn’t cover damage to the car, it left me with nothing. I paid to sue as well and he never paid me. I’m bitter and one day probably in 6 months I’ll have a new car and can put it behind me.
9. Feel like a loser. You know I tell myself I have come far. I nailed my last interview. I speak more like an adult. And yes I grew up late. But I’ve changed and I don’t feel incapable of life.
