Basically, only hours back here and I’m already reading about how damaged people with mental illness are.

@StarLily I mean, I get it. I don’t like me either but I don’t really need help kicking my own ass.

@PeachyK yeah.

@Bruja it made me really sad. I struggle a lot with self doubt. 🖤🤗

@SW-User amen 🖤 🙏

@SW-User ty. my fiancée helps keep me grounded. I’d be so lost without her. She sent me this. 🖤

@JustGoneNow I am really happy you have her. ❤️

@SW-User ty. me too. she totally gets it.

@ozgirl512 I sure hope so. she’s worth the world to me.

@JustGoneNow i don't think she's wasting her time ....

@ozgirl512 🖤

@HootyTheNightOwl yeah, I’m pretty dumb like that. lol

@JustGoneNow When my illness is bad, I doubt what others would see in me, too - I mean... its looking like I have one and a half feet in a wheelchair, and now I'm off food because I can't keep pretty much anything down.

I just ate 12 smarties buttons and they have me feeling sick again. My man is pretty much the only one who is keeping me going these days.

@HootyTheNightOwl I totally get you. Please be safe. 🖤

@PhoenixPhail same. my pain is mine. I’ll keep it.

@SooperSarah just made me sad. I’m always a little unsure that I’m worth anyone’s time.

@Jeephikelove worthy is a lot. I don’t know that I am. I just try to always give the best I got… and pray it’s enough.

@JustGoneNow You 100% are, I’m sorry your mind tells you differently, but you absolutely are! 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗

@Jeephikelove ty, my friend. 🖤🤗

@ronisme1 some of us are beautifully broken.

@11knaves11 that’s a nice bike. Diamondback is real good. ✌️

@FrozenWasteland ty but are any of us truly worthy? we just humbly accept what we are given and try to become worthy. my fiancée is so much more than I could ever deserve. I’m grateful for her, though. very grateful.

@JustGoneNow I think all "good" (whatever that means) people are "worthy" of being loved. It's different from "deserving" to be loved -- which is not something that many of us truly are.

Love is a gift that someone chooses to offer us -- sometimes for good reasons, sometimes for silly reasons, sometimes for no apparent reason at all. It's not something we earn; not something we somehow "deserve". I think we should be very careful about saying "I don't deserve that", even though it's probably true.

For me, at least, there's a blurry line between "I don't deserve her love" and "She's making a mistake in offering me her love" and I have, on occasion , found myself on the wrong side of that line. One side seems pretty healthy, the other runs dangerously close to me deciding how someone else should feel, which is a pretty awful thing to do to someone who loves me.

I love your words about being grateful for what is offered and trying to become your best for that person (which is how I prefer to read your "try to become worthy" comment).

Anyhow, I do believe that you are worthy of much, much love. Really.

@FrozenWasteland ty, for your kindness. 🦋

@Bang5luts just be aware. restraint can be a beautiful thing. kindness and compassion, doubly so.

I know this is difficult for many here who know me to believe this @JustGoneNow, but I show quite a bit of restraint and biting my tongue

@Bang5luts I believe that. 🌸

@LordShadowfire I don’t think I ever get unbroken. Schizophrenia is kind of a forever thing.

https://similarworlds.com/thoughts/personal-feelings/4341117-Whats-schizophrenia-and-mental-illness-like-for