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What was your worst day?

Why was it your worst day? Did you learn anything from it?


My worst day (so far?) was April 16th, 2015. I was at Target with my husband and very pregnant. My little brother had been missing for a few weeks but he did that kind of thing sometimes (he was 22). My mom called and she could barely speak but managed to shout at me through the phone, "he's dead, he's dead, Brendon's dead!"

I didn't faint, but I got very dizzy and my husband pulled a chair off a display for me. My blood pressure sky-rocketed, by midnight that night I was in the ER. My daughter was born the next day in an emergency c-section and she is the light of my life.

My worst day right before my best day.

Brendon shot himself in the chest with a hand-gun in the woods behind his dad's Oregon property. He had been laying there for weeks when his dad found him. This suicide shattered my family.

What I learned? That nothing, no matter how terrible it seems is bad enough to take your own life. I have spent a lot of time wondering if he was cold before he died; I wonder if he cried before or after he did it; I wonder how long it took him to die and why he didn't just shoot himself in the head.
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4meAndyou · F
My Uncle shot himself in his pickup truck and his two boys found him. They were young teenagers, age 13 and 15. The shock and hurt the whole family still feels to this day never leaves us. He was my favorite Uncle. Some of the family were soooo angry with him for what he did, and some were just hurt, and no one speaks of him. He was so handsome. He was badly wounded in the arm during the war, and it never stopped hurting. He started drinking, and didn't go for help to the VA. He lived in a very rural area. My Aunt used to lock him out of the house when he came home drunk, and she would throw the dishwater on him through the window. It just hurts my heart to think that he sank down into such a deep depression and no one helped him.
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Angelfire21 · 36-40, F
@4meAndyou Oh my God, those poor boys. I thought my brother's father finding him was the worst thing, but a child finding their own parent :( My heart is broken for you and yours but I hope you have found some healing over the years and I think Reaper is right; no more pain.

Love and a prayers all the way from California <3
Angelfire21 · 36-40, F
@FelixLegion I have a cousin who is serving half a life sentence for accidentally killing someone in a bar dispute; he was very drunk, but he had been extremely volatile, paranoid and afraid after coming back from Iraq and he really didn't mean to finish the guy.

His mom visits him every week. I think we can and should do better for our war heroes.
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Angelfire21 · 36-40, F
@FelixLegion I don't get offended by nice names babe, don't even worry about that. And I agree. I think he needed counseling and a friend because what he got was a short dismissal and an overnight sentence.

And when I say hero, I'm talking about any person who joins our armed forces. I thought about going into the Air Force after I graduated and I just couldn't bring myself to do it because I was afraid. It is a heroic thing to sign up to protect our country and to me, all of you are heroes.
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Angelfire21 · 36-40, F
@FelixLegion I'm a full time police dispatcher in La County, so sometimes I feel like I still get to help be and be of service even if it's from behind safety glass :P

Thanks for talking with me, you're awesome and I'm glad I met you tonight <3
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Angelfire21 · 36-40, F
@FelixLegion You can PM me whenever you like. I read them all and don't respond to the scary ones usually, but I don't universally ignore people like some lol
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