How do you deal with a depression that won't go away and wishing you were dead ?

@SW-User ive been on alot of site and what this site does offer is so many people to talk to. if I run into someone who is negative or disrespecxtful i just block them

@ElPhonse good

i hope you dont mind but your profile name sounds very serious. would you share why you chose chernobyl ?

@Butterflykisses24 thanks daisy. i am in two programs. one in between shifts at work during the mid day and another after work for self medication with alcohol. talking always helps. i went from being a happy father, husband, ER Tech and home owner to a lonley single man trying to deal with this emptiness,

and i have a counselor in each of the two programs. and being here allows me to reach out to talk to people who may understand. funny thing is that as an ER Tech, many of my patients were suicidal, homicidal, drunk or high and depressed or bipolar. in fact, someone who is in group therapy was one of my old patients and remembers me.

@Cgr1994 thanks for making me laugh brother but because of my job thats out

@Fernie I smoke all day everyday just makes me happy

i thought of it but again, most jobs check on you. also i never was a pot smoker. mostly beer and spirits

I also take wellbutrin which helped in the begining but this is a real tough time now. This month is tye years anniversary of signing divorce papers

@SW-User thanks im doing that. I just want to hear from people who are struggling with the same issues

@ElPhonse I'm not a therapist. I'm not a good person to talk to about this. That's why I said see a professional.

@MartinTheFirst its interesting that you say that. I am a Christian but like Jacob on that mountain, I find myself wrestling with God and His will.

@ElPhonse Certain things can be difficult to accomplish, but we will try to the end.

@Fernie exactlly fernie. i'd like a relief from this horrible life i cant accept. i also reach out on this site just to have some type of company

@ElPhonse That is very good...the isolation is a killer

Yes and on and off today and especially after about 5 or 6pm i'll be back on for sure. Nights and weekends suck because i dont have a significant other to love, hug or share with me,.. 😟