How do you deal with a depression that won't go away and wishing you were dead ?

@Cgr1994 that is THE WORST advice you could possibly give him

@Fernie well that's the route I took after my love of 9 yrs leaving

@Cgr1994 weed ...when abused "lots of it" is a depressant. I've been smoking it twice as long as you have been alive...when I self medicated with it...abused it...I was ten times more depressed and unmotivated...that's what it does ...keeps you in one place when your saturated. Please don't tell depressed, maybe suicidal people to smoke lots of weed

@Cgr1994 thanks for making me laugh brother but because of my job thats out

@Fernie I smoke all day everyday just makes me happy

i thought of it but again, most jobs check on you. also i never was a pot smoker. mostly beer and spirits