I can't believe it's only been a week since I blocked that one person who boasts of eating glitter.

@sarabee1995 Not the way I did it. See, I blocked her with the intention of keeping her blocked, because she literally said my family deserves what's happening to our properties. But then the next day I unblocked her, because I'm unable to maintain the amount of hatred it would take for me to keep someone on permanent block status. So it went back through our argument and found something she had said that technically violated the rules, and I reported it. Now the website has her on semi-permanent block status. I can't unblock her for a full month.

I did this to myself intentionally so that I couldn't simply unblock her and try to talk about it before I was ready.

@LordShadowfire I have no idea of these rules. Anyway ... Why do you get so mad so quick? You've told several stories where you describe your temper and things you've done or almost done as a result. Do you do anything to try to work on the temper?? I ask as someone who used to have MAJOR temper issues.

@sarabee1995 I've done quite a bit, actually. The trouble is, my brain is basically wired for combat, because my grandparents, on a daily basis, did the one thing you never do. They yelled at the pregnant lady. She got mad and yelled back. So my time in the womb was spent full of adrenaline, feeling her heartbeat going as fast as a human heart can go, and listening to screaming.

I recognize all of this, but as someone who has put in the effort, you know it's not easy.

@LordShadowfire Nope, it definitely is not. To this day I feel it rise inside me. Now I take it out on my rubber dummy. He takes a lot of abuse from me.

@sarabee1995 I should do that. Somebody gave me a punching bag, and all I have to do is fill the base with water and beat the living dog piss out of it. But I just haven't.

@LordShadowfire Lol, yup. I've had a practice dummy for home practice of my taekwondo since I was like 9-ish years old. The one I have now is my third one because I've literally destroyed the first two.

The beast within is a real thing. It's life force must be regulated, controlled, and tapped.

Find your Zen place. For me it is the ocean, but for you it might be mountains or a lake or your backyard. Find it and go there often. Meditate and take it all in. 🙏