Sometimes I feel like I have to be removed for the betterment of humanity.

At the expense of my family having to mourn and miss me. I'm so scared though...I wish I could just accept my fate without being so fearful.

In the end we all have to go sometime. I can't do it to myself though because that's wrong its self harm someone else must have to do it to me.

I would miss my family as I'm sure they would miss me but our time here and our families are not forever.

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TinyViolins · 31-35, M

That's irrational, dude. Nobody knows the future. You can't possibly know when your time is up.

All we can control is what we choose to do with the time we do have. Sure, we can mope and feel sorry for ourselves, but that's not much of a life. Personally, I choose to be kind, to help others where I can, to enjoy fresh air, to eat good food, and to get lost in movies and books. Makes my life feel worthwhile.

You just gotta find what works for you. What kind of life would you want to live if death wasn't an option?

cyberdude28 · 31-35, M

@TinyViolins I'd want to live a life full of love, happiness and compassion.

TinyViolins · 31-35, M

@cyberdude28 I'd say a lot of people want those things too. What has been stopping you from pursuing those things?

cyberdude28 · 31-35, M

@TinyViolins Mental illness. I'm not unloving or non compassionate I'm more like apathetic.

TinyViolins · 31-35, M

@cyberdude28 What have you tried in order to manage or treat your mental illness?

cyberdude28 · 31-35, M

@TinyViolins Medication

TinyViolins · 31-35, M

@cyberdude28 Sometimes medication works, sometimes it doesn't. It's a tricky balance. My girlfriend's tried different meds and different dosages to manage her anxiety, but she apparently feels good enough now that she doesn't need to see her therapist anymore.

Granted, those pills aren't miracle workers. It usually needs to be balanced out with healthy habits to function properly