If only I was some social butterfly

Not doing too good. I wish my life was different, I wish I HAD a life, but I don't. I don't know any people my age, and when I try socializing with my peers at school I end up saying weird or childish things.

And don't even get me started on men! I literally don't know how to keep a convo with a guy going, I get so nervous I just leave the situation immediately, and its not because I want to be mean but usually when I'm under stress I start crying and its just a bad situation for everyone. I really need some social skills 😭