Thinking about my husband

I'm trying to keep smiling for him and most days I'm managing to. "Keep smiling baby girl" I know that's what he'd say to me but the truth is some days it's so hard. I don't want to do life without him. What I feel like today is going to bed. Putting the duvet over my head and going to sleep. And never waking up. Everyone thinks I'm so together and capable. Because I'm the queen of putting on a brave face and faking it. But honestly, I have no fecking clue what I'm doing. My husband, he was my rock. An anchor in the storm of life. He made sense of the craziness. But in the blink of an eye. It was all snatched away and I don't know how to adjust. I'm tired of trying.

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carpediem · M

Having experienced exactly what you are going through, I can share these thoughts. You will find acceptance at some point. The love remains but accepting the reality of what happened and what my life will be like without her in it is the point where things started to change for me. I'd be happy to discuss any of this with you if you'd like. I have discussed with others and both of us were better for it.

Degbeme · 70-79, M

I won`t sit here and say I know how you`re feeling, because I haven`t a clue. Only you know that and I think he`d be damn proud of you and how you`ve carried on without him. I`m truly sorry he is gone, but he helped you in ways you may not realize as of yet. I do hope you continue to keep going forward, one step at a time. He is by your side. 💜

Babal · 46-50, M

So sorry to know your present situation.Let God guide you in the storm of life.

dirge · M

sorry things are difficult

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