How Long Is It Going To Feel This Bad?

I'm a year and five months into this journey called grief and it still hits like a tsunami some days. I never knew you could feel so many emotions at one time. People say time is a great healer. They mean well but respectfully I think it's balls. I don't think we do heal. It's the cost of love. I think as time goes on I'm learning to build my life around the grief. Where once I wasn't capable of doing anything but exist, now I go out, see my friends and laugh. But grief is still there right in the centre of my life. Sorry you're walking this horrible journey too. Love and hugs 🤗