Today was a long day

Spending the day in the ER was horrible. After the endoscopy I really don't know what happened but my anxiety was so bad. I felt like I was about to have a panic attack and even with the meds they gave to it didn't help. I just wanted to get out of there and go home. So Joel talked to the doctor and after my IV they said I could go home.

I've never felt like that before. I mean I hate hospitals but this was just so overwhelming. The doctor said it might have been a reaction to the anesthesia. I don't know what it was but I never want to feel like that again. Even Joel couldn't calm me down

So I spent the evening outside with a fire and my family. We watched the baseball games and had a better evening. I feel bad because we missed our support group and date night because of this

I'm taking tomorrow off. I just feel like I need a day to relax.

But my stomach already feels better. I'm on new medicine, new antibiotics and they want me to take Pepto-Bismol as well. It seems to be helping. Now I just need to sleep.