Anxiety is bad

My anxiety was been so bad this week because of being in the hospital. I haven't slept much, outbursts are really bad, ive barely eaten, my head and chest are killing me. I get out today and part of me wants to rush to see the kids

But a bigger parts wants to just go to my apartment and try and relax and reset my mind, get some sleep and spend the day with them tomorrow.

Am i a bad father for feeling this way