I Hate Having Anxiety

I am depressed I have aniexty I am a caregiver for my dad its hard Im always home all the time. My husband and I moved to a very small town theres nothing but a gas station the nearest grocery is ten miles away I keep having panic moments panic attacks when we got to town it seems to happen when Im really stressed the last time it happened was when my husband and I had been fighting most the night I had no sleep. I know I can drive i drove home the other night with my friend she doesnt like to go to town much Im still trying to make friends its lonely i have gotten where I don't get out much I could,cry I do cry theres nothing in this town not even a library this hyperventilating stuff panicky is uncool stressful I never did this before between stress and my marriage my dad moving in new town still its hard embarassing .

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drymer · 56-60, M

Odd, I have anxiety, but social anxiety... I wish I could move to a very small town... (can't due to family reasons). The way you describe it seems like heaven to me (minus the caregiver part, and arguing with your partner...) People make me anxious, I crave solitude... Funny how people often get the opposite of what they want or look for...
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Browneyes30 · 36-40, F

yea I guess I just like to get out do things I love small towns I grew up in one here I dont even have a library or much to do. I guess Im just spending so much time with dad I love my dad to much time with someone not much space I think is causing me stress

Mguinm · 51-55, F

I feel for you because I too am a caregiver and right now going through the hardest break up of my life to my soulmate and arguing. I've been under so much stress with little sleep and my heart hurting and flying with anxiety. I want you to know you are not alone with feeling this way. I'm here for you if you need someone to talk to. *Hugs*

Browneyes30 · 36-40, F

thank you so much yes being a caregiver is hard I cared for my mom now my dad my dad was verbally abusive growing up makes things hard he is negative a lot

Mguinm · 51-55, F

@Browneyes30 yeah I've had horrible child abuse myself and my dad has since passed away from alcoholism. His body was rotting in his apartment and I kept trying to alert authorities to go in there because I hadn't heard from him and my intuition said he had died. I had to take care of all his things and cremate him. He lived in another state and I had to move furniture with back injuries. The smell of death and cigarettes was the worst. It still haunts me to this day.

Browneyes30 · 36-40, F

im here to listen to you as well Im a pretty good listener that sounds horrible Im so sorry

IAmJess

{hugs}

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