I Hate Having Anxiety

I am depressed I have aniexty I am a caregiver for my dad its hard Im always home all the time. My husband and I moved to a very small town theres nothing but a gas station the nearest grocery is ten miles away I keep having panic moments panic attacks when we got to town it seems to happen when Im really stressed the last time it happened was when my husband and I had been fighting most the night I had no sleep. I know I can drive i drove home the other night with my friend she doesnt like to go to town much Im still trying to make friends its lonely i have gotten where I don't get out much I could,cry I do cry theres nothing in this town not even a library this hyperventilating stuff panicky is uncool stressful I never did this before between stress and my marriage my dad moving in new town still its hard embarassing .

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Browneyes30 · 36-40, F

thank you so much yes being a caregiver is hard I cared for my mom now my dad my dad was verbally abusive growing up makes things hard he is negative a lot

Mguinm · 51-55, F

@Browneyes30 yeah I've had horrible child abuse myself and my dad has since passed away from alcoholism. His body was rotting in his apartment and I kept trying to alert authorities to go in there because I hadn't heard from him and my intuition said he had died. I had to take care of all his things and cremate him. He lived in another state and I had to move furniture with back injuries. The smell of death and cigarettes was the worst. It still haunts me to this day.

Browneyes30 · 36-40, F

im here to listen to you as well Im a pretty good listener that sounds horrible Im so sorry