Struggling because I'm agnostic

Hi Coral. I think it's natural to feel really confused and fearful when someone is passing and especially if you're questioning faith and what happens when someone is dying. I wanted to share an experience I had in the hope that it might help.

My husband had a sudden and unexpected brain hemorrhage in 2024 and whilst we were doing end of life care, I found myself praying over and over again and pleading with God that he'd either bring him back to me or, if that wasn't Gods will, to make sure my husband didn't suffer when his tubes were removed.

Whilst I was praying I suddenly felt an overwhelming feeling of love and of being hugged. Initially I thought a nurse was hugging me but then I realised I was standing next to a wall so nobody could be behind me.

What I felt was a literal physical sensation of arms wrapped around me and then that feeling of warmth and the peace of love you get when you hugging someone you love, but more than just a hug, this kind of love totally filled me.

I 100% believe that not only is God real and that this life is not the end but also, if what I felt that day in the hospital was only a fraction of what heaven is like, it's going to absolutely blow our minds. I know like my husband, your Dad is going to a better place and even though the loss still hurts unbelievably, we can have peace in that.

I hope this can bring you some comfort.
Xx