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That is why they initially went after souls. They wanted a soul for themselves so they could incarnate and wreak more havoc. Also, the soul was a very valuable thing I made I am realizing. Every soul contains access to my notes....the entire process of the development of creation. They...want that.

When they realized souls contained my energy....it changed their intents towards them. Because they were addicted to my energy.....they were addicted to souls. And so sought to consume them for this reason.

Demons. I am still thinking on them. However. It is my suspicion that demons are related to the souls these spirits consume. When a spirit consumes a soul, the spirit that possesses that soul basically dies. It loses itself. It forgets who and what it is and becomes an extension of whatever consumed it. They have no will of their own.

Once I had a dream. And I didn't understand it. In the dream, I was being invited to hell, but I didn't want to go. I wanted to go to heaven. So I went there. But it was not anything that I thought. It was a false paradise. Souls lounged there enjoying themselves obliviously. "God" in the dream was awful. All he did was sit on his throne and eat meat, just an endless influx of meat being delivered to him somehow. He didn't care about the people there at all, barely noticed them.

It was a warning. That is what his "heaven" is. I have been warned of this in so many different ways. Michael's heaven, the heaven of christianity, is a false paradise. A trap. Christianity is designed to be a soul mill for Michael and his buddies. In every step of it you have to pledge yourself to him, reject Lucifer, etc. All these humans have been offering themselves up for slaughter. And I think subconsciously at least, some of them are aware. He lets them play around and enjoy themselves in his made up paradise he thinks they'll like, unawares and trusting, and then when he needs his next "fix" he devours them and they become his demons. His little henchmen.

Lucifer is not king of the demons. He does not manage them. Michael is the king of the demons. That is why "God" has authority over them specifically. Because they are him. Though I suspect now they all have their own demons that serve under them. Because I now know all of them, all the rebels, have consumed souls. Some of them were trying to convince me they have not. They are lying.

Ah. I see. I was clever for once. (More likely Lucifer was involved and let me think it was my idea to be nice to me. He loves to spin stories to you and get you to do things by making you think it was your idea all along. Shhhh it was all me.) When I designed souls, I somehow foresaw how it could go wrong if they weren't connected to their physical bodies somehow. Because of how Jesus (Gabriel) was. Gabriel was not subjected to the same forced memory loss and repression as we all were when he incarnated, because he was on the enemy side. So he knew who he was and how to use all his abilities. Furthermore, he was not bound or tethered to his physical human body in any way. This meant he was not "muted" like the rest of us, who were tethered to our bodies because of Michael thinking he was trapping his enemies but like I said Lucifer was behind it and his actual reason was so spirits would be forced to be mortal and couldn't run away from it if they decided they weren't having a good time.

So I changed how the tether worked too. And I tied the soul to the body. So that as long as the body was alive, its soul could never be separated from it. So that if those rebels did somehow manage to trick me into giving them their own souls, they would be trapped in their own prison. They would be forced to become TRULY mortal. Not the bizarre way they were trying to do it.

Yeah. All that is way too devious for my design. Lucifer definitely had his hands in it. Dammit.

They are trying to threaten me. That if I renege on my deal they will on theirs. They will trap the humans they take in hell again if I don't cooperate with them.

These threats are pointless. And also, Lucifer is running hell right now. And the only things he has locked up there now.....ah. They were trying to manipulate me. To make me think they were the most dangerous of them all. No. They are the weakest of them all. The smallest threats. Because Lucifer was able to trick and capture all of them to contain them. Since I wasn't getting with the program and letting go of these harmful parts of him and me, he was trying to figure out some sort of damage control in the meantime. I am sure he intended to get all of them there eventually, and keep them there until he could convince me to let them die.

No wonder he had them carry out their plan in hell. He told them it was to keep it a secret. Because hell is the dark. It is where all is hidden. This seemed great to them-they could do whatever horrible nasty things they desired to do to the creator, and nobody would be the wiser. And the torturers to saviors masquerade plan seemed very good to them to get me to love them. But Lucifer always had another intention.....he was luring them to hell....to try to figure out how to trap them there. I see.

Ah....I was aware immediately that Gabriel/Jesus' conception was in no way "immaculate." Because....I know them and how they feel towards me and behave. But I couldn't remember the circumstances precisely.

Gabriel....possessed a man....and raped me. And then....he made me lie about it....or at least....I was scared to confess so I didn't....because....they designed things so that women would be punished for being raped then. If it was found out. So they could be disgusting and get away with whatever they pleased and shut up their victims. (Please note the female rebels are just as devious and have developed their own ways to shut up and discount male victims of female rapists as well. They are just different.) That is how I became pregnant. And he inhabited the human body that came of the pregnancy.

It was all covered up to suit Michael's perfect narrative. They swayed Joseph to defend me and vouch for me. God was perfect. God would never rape anyone. Uh-huh. Sure.

Michael was directing Gabriel.......at this point I did not trust Michael anymore. I was suspicious of him. And I suspect....he was fading away. Until they changed my mind. But I didn't know Gabriel was one of the ones that had hurt me at the time. I always liked Gabriel. I always got along well with him. He was quiet, gentle. Kind, I thought. He was wise and I respected that about him. I had no idea.

Because he was one of my other "favorites", Michael used him. But he was fully along with it. He is not innocent.

It was after this even that I believe I created souls. Somehow. I don't remember fully yet. But I somehow realized what had happened, that I had been tricked. So I tweaked things. I changed things so that in order to become human, truly human, as in to incarnate in a physical body, you HAD to have a soul. It was to keep them away....the dangerous ones. To keep them from pulling that stunt they did again.

Ah. Another thing. They knew my love was in every soul. They thought they could sustain themselves this way without me actually needing to love them directly. But it doesn't work like that. They can't just steal my love for themselves.

The father, Michael. The son, Gabriel. The holy spirit.....me. He was trying to connect us all forever in the minds of everyone. To make us inseparable. To solidify his fake rule.

I can save the demons. When those spirits die, the demons will be freed. Oh that is a relief to me. They are innocent.