Interested in death

Hiii people from this amazing site!
I tried to find help in myself for this thing,but i couldn't do it alone,so i am here.
I know that the title is really strange,but let me explain it.
When i was a 18 years old,i had a car accident,and from this moment my whole life was changed.I became interested in death and i read so many information about dead people...I am more interested in spiritual world,than this whole world,where i live and i am scared.
I even can't wait to go there,i don't care about this world now and the life,because here people are not good and just...i don't belong here anymore.
And it is so bad and sad,because i am young person and i am so interested in death,that i can't explain. I am interested in dead people,dead celebrities,and such things.I even talked with person,who helped me go back to my previous life and i thought that this could help and will stop my interest,but it didn't happen.In fact it grows every day and i don't know what to do.So,please if someone knows why this is happening and what to do,please write me!I am happy even to share with you my thoughts!
Be happy,dear people!

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LadyGrace

I think you are wise in realizing your spiritual side, over this present life, as we spend far longer in eternity. This life is only like one grain of sand, compared to the the endless "beach" of eternity. However, be careful in exploring death. Theres a very dark side you may not be aware of, that can bring you disastrous results. Delving into these things, given the wrong knowledge, can be your ruin. Don't believe everything you hear. Many can steer you wrong. There's a healthy way to study it and then a way which is destructive. It's nothing to play with nor experiment with. And I assure you...in the end, death is NOT the victor.

Adstar · 56-60, M

Wow i have a similar history to you Katia.. Not exactly the same, but similar..

I had a near death experience when i was in a car accident when i was 20 years old.. I was riding my bicycle home from work and i got hit by a car and seriously injured and got an ambulance ride to hospital.. It took me 3 months to mend enough to return to work..

Anyway going through a near death experience does change out world view completely.. realizing that you nearly died does focus the mind to start to think about life and this world and whats it all about..

Yes once you are forced to think about this world and the way it is you come to realize just how terrible this world is and just how faulty people are ( including oneself ).. That's when the seeking for greater meaning and hope starts..

My seeking lead me to God.. Through the Lord Jesus Christ.. Yeah i did for a short time get into New Age philosophy for a short time.. But thanks be to God i found His message and His way that Gave me hope and assurance in a world with no hope or any assurances..

Katia · 31-35, F

Thank you so much for your replies,friends!! This theme is really interesting for me and i thought that everything changed after the accident,because before it,i wasn't like that.Even i am watching documentaries about wars and such things...
Unfortunately i don't have anymore friends,only one friend and she is far away and we are chatting.
I changed my whole idea for the life,in general. I started to think,that this life is just wasting time,the most important life is out there,also i wanted to study in the university things for the third eye,how to develop yourself and such things,and not the same old borring things... I know that the whole idea sound strange,but i can't help myself and may be this is some kind of message,but i just don't get it.

TinyViolins · 31-35, M

There are academics that seem to share your interest. It's called thanatology, the study of death and all things involved from a variety of angles. It's pretty unique. You can combine that field of study with a variety of other disciplines because death touches so much.

For example, you can combine thanatology with psychiatry and become a grief counselor, or combine it with anthropology and study the rituals people have around death, or combine it with sociology to see how death impacts people at different degrees of connection from deceased. There's no limit to what you can do with that knowledge, because nobody beats death. In the end, it reigns supreme

Katia · 31-35, F

I am so happy to hear again from you,people.😊
I am so sorry to hear that,near death experiences could literally change you and you could be not the same again. As one person here saying (she had also a death experience,she wad in coma for many days)I needed to have a death experience,to finally think normally!

smiler2012 · 56-60

@Katia so sorry to hear that . death is not the answer and not an option . you may not know and realise this you have a lot of good things going on in your world so you put any thoughts of death out of your head and enjoy the good things you have family friends

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