Interested in death

Hiii people from this amazing site!
I tried to find help in myself for this thing,but i couldn't do it alone,so i am here.
I know that the title is really strange,but let me explain it.
When i was a 18 years old,i had a car accident,and from this moment my whole life was changed.I became interested in death and i read so many information about dead people...I am more interested in spiritual world,than this whole world,where i live and i am scared.
I even can't wait to go there,i don't care about this world now and the life,because here people are not good and just...i don't belong here anymore.
And it is so bad and sad,because i am young person and i am so interested in death,that i can't explain. I am interested in dead people,dead celebrities,and such things.I even talked with person,who helped me go back to my previous life and i thought that this could help and will stop my interest,but it didn't happen.In fact it grows every day and i don't know what to do.So,please if someone knows why this is happening and what to do,please write me!I am happy even to share with you my thoughts!
Be happy,dear people!

Katia · 31-35, F

Thank you so much for your replies,friends!! This theme is really interesting for me and i thought that everything changed after the accident,because before it,i wasn't like that.Even i am watching documentaries about wars and such things...
Unfortunately i don't have anymore friends,only one friend and she is far away and we are chatting.
I changed my whole idea for the life,in general. I started to think,that this life is just wasting time,the most important life is out there,also i wanted to study in the university things for the third eye,how to develop yourself and such things,and not the same old borring things... I know that the whole idea sound strange,but i can't help myself and may be this is some kind of message,but i just don't get it.