Ch ch changes...

So, I am trying to get back to a new normal; it will never be what it was again.
I know I am going to need help.
I have started back on my exercise routine, but I am having a hard time staying on my diabetic diet.
I think it's more about stress than anything else.
My blood sugar numbers are high, and even with the exercise and insulin, they are not at
normal levels.
I don't think being disgusted with myself is working, and so I know I have to seek out some counseling before my health gets worse.

I am thinking about joining an ongoing book club at the old people's gatherings or the community center, as it is so named.
They also do a walking club in the spring, and perhaps I will join that.

I will have to get a job because I only have about 9 months' worth of income to work with.
I can't get any retirement until I am 60.
There is a place that offers training for people over 55.
They train you, it's only 20 hours a week at minimum wage, but it's a program where the goal is to end up with full-time job at a higher wage.

I know I can't commit to much until after this month and the memorial is behind me.
I will call the counseling place today because it always takes time to get into something like that.