Crying isn't bad. I had a hard time with my father's death, too. It's more than grief. It feels like you're at sea with no anchor.

But you're not, I learned. All that your Dad was is part of you. His physical presence is gone, that's all.
He lives on in every breath, every tear, every joy.

All the lessons he taught you are a map for living.

From what I know of you, he was a great navigator.

Cry when you must. Laugh when you can - he'd want you to.

The first year is the toughest, all the unshared milestones. It does get easier to bear.

You said the most beautiful words you could have said, and he definitely felt them deeply and by your description, they gave him some soulful comfort. Take the best he has taught you and pass it on. It is cheesy to say he is still alive in your heart, but it is true. Your love for him is still there and thriving despite the physical separation. Grieving is a long process and it is okay to let it out... take time to express and let the pain out. Spend a lot of time outside. Contrary to the first instinct to curl and cry, don't allow this to become a loop-cycle - kick your butt out from time to time, for a random walk. It seems to help me, I hope it helps you too. Courage, feel all the emotions, but remember that you are very strong and you have many amazing things to do.
Now you have the responsibility to live a better life than ever, so that you can feel that you made your dad happy by transforming your life in a way that makes you happy... because... that is the ultimate highest wish of loving parents 💗
I wish for your pain to subside, so that you can notice beautiful moments in their full splendor again.
But don't rush it.... let it happen on its own rhythm.

My condolences upon your deep loss. The loss of a parent never ends. Each of us becomes orphans eventually. The memory of your last moments when you both exchsnged I love yous will provide you comfort and solace. That helps some. Your tomorrow will arrive in its time decades from now. Take the time to remember your love with and for him over the years on your birthday. I find it comforting to take a long walk in nature on such an occasion. Speak his name out loud. Talk to him. He shall pick up your words. Heart to spirit. I planted a lovely rose. It always blossomed around the time of his birthday. You shsll cry. Less snd less over the years. Love for a parent never dies. Just grows sweeter through time. Be gentle upon yourself. Polar bear hugggggggsssss.

You really shouldn't be sad, he's no longer in that position where he struggles to find a comfortable position, or being in a world of pain. He finally has the rest he needs, so be happy for him. Remember all the good times you've had, and how he influenced your life, this will give you strength, and may assist you on your way through this journey of life.

Sorry for your loss, Lord rest his soul.❤️

I'm so sorry for your loss. My father passed away over two years ago so I know what you're going through.

I’m so sorry. Spend time with your family or gf on your birthday.
I really wish you a happy birthday. I’m sure your dad wants you to be happy too and he’s watching you. 🫂

I’m so sorry. I’m kind of at that point with my mother’s passing. Some days I feel like I’m managing pretty well, but there will be something I’ll wish I could share with her…and it’s hard. Like others have said, cry when you need to. I certainly have been. Part of the grieving process, I imagine.

@Zaphod42 😞so sorry that really hurts but there was no shame letting out emotion after all he was you dad

Memories are powerful.

Take yourself out to dinner for him. He would like that.

So sorry for your loss. Save the good memories

Treat old men you find in your vicinity & spend little time with them.

I’m sorry, I know how you feel. There are no words.

I’m so sorry for your loss. 😞 HUGS

Happy Birthday.

❤️ sorry for your loss

(((((HUGS))))) I am so very sorry for your loss Dear Friend, always think of your happy memories of your Dad and smile knowing You have them, what You have is more precious than gold :) And Happy Birthday when You read this :)