Does it really get better or worst?

I wonder what victims of abuse did once they got away .my abusive ex will be getting out in a year and I’m a bit nervous because I know I will always be paying attention, having anxiety everywhere I go .I feel like ny bd will try to get revenge so I know from now on out , I have to carry something on me, I would rather leave ny but I’m waiting trying to research if I should move a city over but what worries is me is that people can find out where u live just by researching your name to google and it will give an address as well, i even thought of changing my name and go to a gun state, I know these things take time but I wanna be readying. It’s so much on my mind