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Sigh... I hate that I'm emotional 😓

As soon as things get hard, I tell myself that I don't deserve good things & I'm stupid for trying.

& I hate admitting that I feel that way. People say it's okay to be vulnerable.. that is okay to be hurt.
But I don't wanna be the one that needs reassuring. I feel like such a burden & ugghh... It makes me so mad at myself.

That's all.
ChiefJustWalks · 26-30 Pinned Comment
Normally I comment back to all the comments I can but I don't always have words when I'm upset.

I appreciate you all being cool & supportive though 🥹

I realize that being mad at myself for having those feelings, comes from trauma & being made to feel like I can't show that. Especially in the background I come from. I can't express sadness without feeling weak.
I'm glad that SW lets me vent where I don't feel judged.. & that people actually care enough to talk to me 🙏
I was gonna delete this post but just wanted to say that first

I hate to be a 'burden', too. But it's ego.

I don't want to admit I need something.

'Fess up.
SwampFlower · 31-35, F
That's from fucked up conditioning. It's okay to need some reassurance now and then 🤗
Nutshell29 · 26-30, F
You deserve it ok? You have a great heart. You deserve better things because of all the shit you've been through. Trust me I know how you feel


JestAJester · 31-35, M
Suck it up like I do. Take those feelings, bury them deep deep down. Bottle them up until they burst

OhIsMe · 36-40, M
It's all about the balance. Give back when you're able, but don't be afraid to be vulnerable. I won't lie, if all you ever do is seek reassurance from people it can be draining. But if in between those times you're caring and kind people will be determined to support you.
Reject · 26-30, M
I tell myself that all the time. I’ve made too many costly mistakes to think otherwise. So I stopped basing my happiness on the idea that I’m not all the things I wanted to be. Instead I focus it on doing everything I can for people. Even if it means being nicer to myself.
Hey man I'm pretty emotional myself and honestly I feel the same. I try to not need anyone but sometimes we do need a little reassurance. There's nothing wrong with that we're all human.
Better to be emotional and work through them than to hold it in and blow up. It's the harder thing to do. You're not made stronger by ignoring your emotions.
Lostpoet · M
Everybody goes through that and from what I've read about you you've come out of a lot worse.
MellyMel22 · F
You’ll eventually get out of it, you already want it to change. You deserve to not be so hard on yourself.
SW-User
You do deserve good things bruh. You do, totally. You're not a burden pfft.
Chin up eh, emotions are hard, always. 🍻
Valerian · 100+, M
🙄 Wow! 😮
Your Avatar looks are so very Diametrically Opposed to that statement, there are surprises everywhere.
Valerian · 100+, M
@ChiefJustWalks My apologies and my sincerest regrets, I did an idiot "Internet shit" just as you suggested.
No excuse, I should have accepted your words and realized that you can be have a traumatic life, have repercussions and live in an emotional rollercoaster of of a life, never revealing it for fear of rejection and more or continuing upheaval.
Take care of yourself. seek help as you can, realize that you're not alone, not unique, not bad for your weakness, sadness, helplessness or needing support, love and understanding. I am embarrassed for being a smartassshithead toward you.

I also appreciate your calling me Out. I respect you.
You can chat with me anytime.
ChiefJustWalks · 26-30
@Valerian I appreciate that. I didn't expect you to be understanding I was probably only commenting back because its kind of a trigger when people "test" me.
I grew up fighting people if they questioned me. I suppose when you live a rougher life, you learn to not show emotion because as soon as you do, theres people who will think you're weak, have no balls, or try to walk on you. You lose respect. You learn to react with aggression because then people know you're not gonna take shit. That, they can respect. Even if they don't like you.

Funny humans, we be huh?
Valerian · 100+, M
@ChiefJustWalks We suck sometimes
JustNik · 51-55, F
You’re a good egg, and it shows. I think that every time I see you here. You’re a self worth being true to. I hope it gets easier with practice. 🤗
But you’re not a burden, you give, and you deserve to get all the good things in this world. 🤗
iamonfire696 · 41-45, F
You deserve good things. It’s okay to feel emotions too 💖
Lilnonames · F
I tell myself that i work hard in life and i deserve this. Stay positive👍

 
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