New Years Resolution

After two decades, I am not quitting marijuana... I am completing a chapter.

This plant walked with me through survival...through silence. ... through seasons when numbing was the only language I knew.

It held space when I didn’t yet know how to hold myself. For that, I offer gratitude, not shame.

But growth has a way of asking harder questions. It asks us to let go not because something is evil, but because it has done its work.

What once soothed now softens my edges too much.... What once grounded me now keeps me tethered to an older version of myself.

So this New Year, I say goodbye with reverence..

I am burying a time capsule... memories, lessons, pain, laughter, coping, identity.... returning them to the earth that carried me while I learned how to stand. Fire will witness the release. Soil will hold the history. And I will walk forward lighter, clearer, and awake.

Spiritual growth isn’t about purity. Fuuuu'qu.. It’s about truth.

It’s about choosing presence over fog, breath over escape, courage over comfort.

I am not losing a plant.

I am meeting myself without it.

And that feels like the most honest resolution I’ve ever made.
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OluJacob · 26-30, M

This is powerful. The way you speak about this transition—with honesty, gratitude, and self-awareness—shows just how much inner work you’ve already done. Letting go of something that once helped you survive isn’t weakness; it’s a sign that you’ve grown beyond the version of yourself that needed it.

What you’re doing isn’t about rejection, it’s about evolution. You’re choosing clarity over comfort, presence over numbness, and that’s a brave kind of truth-telling.

The imagery of burying a time capsule is beautiful. It honors the role this chapter played without letting it define who you’re becoming. There’s something sacred about acknowledging the past while still stepping forward with intention.

You’re not losing anything—you’re meeting a new version of yourself. And the way you’re doing it, with reverence and honesty, feels like the beginning of a very grounded, very awake season of your life.