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Tastyfrzz Okay I see what you mean.  Before my walk back toward God I experienced the same thoughts as well. I always believed there was a God. 
But trying to interject some logic into the matter.  I thought where choosing or to even consider a religion . Why would I put all of my eggs into one basket, when so many are saying they “Are the One” 
It just didn’t make sense. So instead I decided to simply respect the tangible gifts if you like that this world offers , ie Nature, Animals and marvelled at man’s ability via herbal medicines to heal ourselves naturally . 
Like you I could logically justify , being a  believer of Spiritual rather than a Specific religion. 
But then. I just felt , this ideal was a bit too convenient , I after arriving at the threshold of using manifestation to improve my life (& by all accounts it was working)  my spirit rather than become settled, Spiritually I   became slightly restless again! 
Although I was patient because I just knew I was almost at the truth. 
Then I asked myself another question , if you respect Nature which clearly didn’t create itself,   You’ve observed the power of Manifestation . But even then there is no guarantee you are learning this from a pure source. 
Why don’t ditch the ‘ 3rd parties ‘ and cultivate a relationship with the one who Created it all?
& co-incidentally ( God as a way of interjecting at  the right time) 
I was expecting an item of furniture to be delivered, and was experiencing the most awful flu. I said to the guys delivering , “I’ll stay at a distance at distance because you don’t want to catch what I’ve got “😅
And one of the looked  up at picture hanging on my wall .. it’s of the last supper. & he said ah your a Christian , I can see your suffering would you like us to pray for you. & I thought this is a bit strange, none the less kind. So said yes please .
He then joined hands with me &  the other delivery guy who was a christian also , and began to pray , and for the first time in my life ever I experienced a shift in me, I know now it was the ‘Holy Spirit’  my physical didn’t leave right away . But my endless searching for the Truth & Light  in this world did. Soon after I renewed my walk with God , and my questions were answered . Prayer as become an every day staple , and I’m answered.  My life is now an updated and much improved version of what it’s ever been. 
I feel fortunate Amen 🙏🏽 
I realise that it’s no wonder Christ ian’s  keep trying to share this phenomenal amount of Peace we get from knowing God.
Apologies for my lengthy testimony , but your response is a reminder of my personal journey toward rebounding with God . 
Infact I think I’ll post this as a separate post in its self . Thank you for the inspiration. ✨