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I have something to say

“When I say that I am fuckable not lovable, it’s not to say that I am only desirable for sex.
Believe me I know my body is not the sort of body men beg to have sex with.
It is to say I do not think I am someone who anyone could ever truly love.
I’m too much work, too difficult, too complex, and I can feel myself waiting for him to realize this.
To throw in the towel and tell me you’re too much,
That I want too much,
I am simply just too much to deal with.”
- Poet Isabella Dorta

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DeWayfarer · 61-69, M
Positivity is a good thing, for those that chose the majorities path.

Negativity is a good thing, for those that chose to be by themselves.

The between is the hardest path. For it straddles between the two.

Some will say that you will find the one you're looking for, because the path they chose includes the majority.

It's the positive path, because it is the majorities path. In numbers there is commonality.

It's those that are not apart of the majority, who's differences are many, that are very small and multiple minorities.

I have been straddling, between the two paths, all my life.

Though, I have yet to give up on anyone, I have been given up on multiple times. Over and over and over.

I'm definitely not apart of the majority.

I long ago recognized that.
Both my divorced parents called me a rebel, in their respective ways. 🙃
Kajake · 56-60, M
Thats an amazing perception of relationships. Having sex is not always about love. It can be a very intimate moment at any level of friendship.
As I continue to write poetry I am beginning to appreciate other real poets. Great post!
Nothing that is easy is worth having. I’ve struggled to mountain tops bloodied and exhausted. Chapped lips, dying slowly. Only to weep openly at the setting sun that danced with the stars. I treasure those memories.
Renkon · M
There was this girl in my class, in college. In my friend circle she was the most introvert. She refused to be part of any group photos or picnics. She was very friendly though. I felt she had a low of opinion of herself. Thinking she was not attractive like the other girls in the circle. I was the only one she confided in and remained close.

But the irony is, though there were a couple of beautiful girls among my friends, I always felt a glow when with her. For me she was the most beautiful. Because she radiated the feeling of beauty without having attractive physical features. That's a reminder I carry till date.

I don't know where she is. But I bet whoever she is with would agree with me .
I hope you get the point.
DanielsASJ · 36-40, M
@Renkon You didn't get her point though
Renkon · M
@DanielsASJ hmm..now that I think, may be.
BC1880 · 56-60, M
That speaks to the soul
Manofoz · 61-69, M
KingofBones1 · 46-50, M
BOREDAFPA · 41-45, M
@KingofBones1 I sympathize
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Lowkey · M
Nah.... believe in yourself! You're completely lovable, anything else is too shallow for you! Remember, the higher you soar, the smaller you appear to those who can't fly...
NewBeginnings7790 · 41-45, F
@Lowkey This is a really kind thing for you to say. Thank you.
Heavenlywarrior · 36-40, M
We create our circumstances
Heavenlywarrior · 36-40, M
@KneAuxBody you are right about genetics and actions of others… but at some point in competent awareness we have the ability to change our circumstances
SandWitch · 26-30, F
@Heavenlywarrior
I fully agree with you. The misgivings that we unknowingly create for ourself, we can un-create for ourself as well, but only if we desire to.
Heavenlywarrior · 36-40, M
@SandWitch most definitely. When we become aware of that and realize that every moment is an opportunity we have to mold the world and space we are in.
Freeranger · M
In kindness.....I would suggest trading in that choice of poetry. Everyone has worth. Everyone has passion. You have been perfectly built for someone. That you don't know who that is yet, is part of a beautiful game of mystery. Were I you, I'd wipe those tears of despair and treat this more like one of those fun GPS cache objectives.
There's a prize awating the ones who are diligent, and driven enough to go seek it.

Replace doubt with....."I can"
DrewLooking4U · 46-50, M
It’s way more important to love yourself than concern yourself if others love you. Don’t ever depend on love from others. Loving yourself should be #1. Once you have self love then you are on the right path. So when you do find the right person for you it just adds more love in your energy.
SW-User
You tell them, you are more. ✨
Fullmetal · 51-55, M
Don't sell yourself short! You are what you believe! So don't believe yourself to be anything less! Some of us feel the rain, others just get wet! Come, let's feel it! You owe it to yourself!!
jackson55 · M
That’s too bad, it’s nice to have someone to cuddle with.
NewBeginnings7790 · 41-45, F
@jackson55 I wouldn’t know
jackson55 · M
@NewBeginnings7790 You can’t be that hard to get along with ?
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SW-User
I love everything about you, this expression of your feelings is beautiful. Dorta obviously has a way with words. But most are way too insecure to beg for sex face to face. It's much easier to say something through the internet pipes. Being complicated and too much work just makes you human and acknowledging it just shows a high level of self awareness (maybe too high). We're all complicated. We're all damaged. We all want and need love. You are unique in all of the best ways. In any shortcomings you are in great company with the rest of us. You are absolutely loveable and worth every bit of effort it would take to make you happy. You just haven't crossed paths with the person who will get that but you will. ❤️
AuRevoir · 36-40, M
I don’t believe that’s true though..
eMortal · M
Some how I understand this.
BOREDAFPA · 41-45, M
If you're "too much" maybe the person that makes you feel this way doesn't deserve it all. Some people get hung up on looks, or smarts, money etc. It should be about how you treat people. At this point any authentic feelings would be wonderful even if it is" too much"
SW-User
This came across my feed again, I don't know how you feel about yourself now compared to then, but I promise you are not too much to deal with when you find the one who really understands you.
Applepiedom · 61-69, M
People need to wake up and realize that the "cover to the book" is really so less important than what is on the inside. True beauty is poured out not put on
oldercanuck1 · 70-79, M
you body is not always the reason for wanting you ,, maybe you just click with someone and that is all it takes ,,
NewBeginnings7790 · 41-45, F
@oldercanuck1 I’ve only been wanted to sex, never love. And like the post says it’s not because I have a good body, because I don’t at all. It’s just guys never seem me as anything more.
oldercanuck1 · 70-79, M
@NewBeginnings7790 those are not guys you need in your life ,, you need someone to love you for who you are ,,
rayoflight · 46-50, M
So are we happening or what? 🤔
NewBeginnings7790 · 41-45, F
@rayoflight Happening how?
rayoflight · 46-50, M
@NewBeginnings7790 nvm. Just my attempt at being funny.
NewBeginnings7790 · 41-45, F
@rayoflight Oh. 🫤
SW-User
I disagree. Everyone is lovable when you find the right person..
To the right person you're exactly the right amount of work.
samueltyler2 · 80-89, M
Interesting poem. I hope it isn't the way you think of yourself.
NewBeginnings7790 · 41-45, F
@samueltyler2 It is exactly what my life is. It’s who I am.
samueltyler2 · 80-89, M
@NewBeginnings7790 that is so sad, you need to find help somewhere to alter your self image.
HeartlessLove · 31-35, M
So you like poetry? I to am a poet, I would love to share my work with you.
I am too much…which is why I feared being love…love is so fragile and sometimes I don’t know my own strength…I can love given to me right in my hands but sooner or later it will break given the burdens I carry…so I’ve learned to let love pass me by…as if we are strangers
Sequoia51 · 70-79, M
Is that how you feel about yourself?
romell · 51-55, M
everyone comes with their own baggage ..u are no different
Shallowaters · 36-40, M
What lines .... Amazing
Lonelyandyb · 36-40, M
If you’re saying that is about you. I think you are wrong
I'm a better acquaintance than friend. I'm not as interesting as anyone else, we probably won't make amazing memories but I think...no, I hope we're comfortable in each other's presence. I just don't think I can hold anyone's attention more than a moment
losthorizons · 51-55, M
I find you both
Fatalice · 41-45, F
I always thought I was unlovable and unfuckable just too much hard work for anyone to take on but I was wrong the right person came along who loved the care I need and how I look. The right person will put up with it
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HBguy · 61-69, M
Such a sad way of looking at one’s self and at the happy prospects the world presents…. Just say’n.

I know life is mostly a state of mind.
Why? Why are you too much? I'm ND, and I've had that same thought many, many times!!

Usually the words are TOO INTENSE!
MrAverage1965 · 61-69, M
If something is worth having it's worth fighting for. I am sure someone will think you are worth the effort.
i would beg for your body idk what you mean... Idk wht yoir talking aboit you look so good . Your body is soo sexy.. So is your face. Hard to remember but just remember you look very sexy and curvy your face structure and body is so milfy and sexy to me... Its my favorite type of women.. Ones like you
NewBeginnings7790 · 41-45, F
@req89hikowquou How can you say those things about me if you don’t even know me?
@NewBeginnings7790 im sorry i didn't reply to you for a long time I never expected a reply of you. I was gone. Honestly.. I was just thinking about you randomly before I came back here.. I always wished I could know you. You're the sexiest girl here imo . So I was surprised
Livingwell · 61-69, M
Maybe, maybe not. The right man has patience to the the gold within you and appreciate it.
samueltyler2 · 80-89, M
Why do you believe that?
NewBeginnings7790 · 41-45, F
@samueltyler2 It’s just the way things go for me.
samueltyler2 · 80-89, M
@NewBeginnings7790 do you have "a" man in your life?
Dave531 · 31-35, M
You sound like you’re too much to deal with.
NewBeginnings7790 · 41-45, F
@Dave531 no one is asking you to deal with me..
@Dave531 How can you say that?
You probably know the cashier at the grocery better and that's not knowing very much at all is it ?
Reading under 500 words by @NewBeginnings7790
online is the equivalent of reading a newspaper columnist's column a few times and making snap judgements from that!
Seriously?
NewBeginnings7790 · 41-45, F
@KneAuxBody Thank you, I appreciate what you said here.
samueltyler2 · 80-89, M
I hope that is not your self image! I am sure you are beautiful, inside and out.
samueltyler2 · 80-89, M
There are many forms of beauty. Who says you are not beautiful?
losthorizons · 51-55, M
Bang5luts · M
That so very sad to read. I hope you don't feel the same about yourself.

I know when I'm in pain (severe pain) I can be really grouchy and inexcusably rotten with my words. 😪

Even though I know I am not perfect, I also with that am aware of my own personal value and aware I deserve to be treated the same as I treat others.
Believe what you want to believe. If that's it it's your truth.

I believe you're lovable, you're choosing the guys who you are only fuckable for. Circumstances and personal choices create the conundrum
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TiFOgsP69 · 51-55, M
Nonsense!!

 
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